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I always react more than I act. I find myself unable to answer questions about myself - seemingly simple questions - without stopping to think about my answer. And I never know how to answer. I feel I know myself quite well. I'm always trying to fix things. I wonder if I can just let it be.
I bought a lot of new clothes recently and they are making me happy because I am finally comfortable again. Now I just have to figure out how my hair would agree to be done nowadays. Everything I try lately looks terrible.
Occasionally, I try to start wearing makeup. I usually don't stay interested beyond 2 days.
I'm going back on Zoloft. Yup. I wonder what impact that will have. I am also subscribed a med for add but it needs to be prior-authorized and that takes about 3 years.
I have become more cynical. I have been feeling lonely. I have been worrying about the wrong things. I keep forgetting myself. Which reminds me, I'd better go take an iron pill. I have to take those yucky things to give myself a better chance at being myself.
I am trying not to be so reserved, for my own benefit. Hardly anybody will truly like me no matter what so I needn't spend so much energy trying as hard as I do. I get the logic. I feel as though I've always gotten the logic. But those feelings come anyways. They are unaffected by logic. :( Frustrating. I keep reminding myself and I keep forgetting. Maybe I need to consider some sort of reminder. But what? I would say this will require thought but chances are I won't bother thinking further.
I bought a lot of new clothes recently and they are making me happy because I am finally comfortable again. Now I just have to figure out how my hair would agree to be done nowadays. Everything I try lately looks terrible.
Occasionally, I try to start wearing makeup. I usually don't stay interested beyond 2 days.
I'm going back on Zoloft. Yup. I wonder what impact that will have. I am also subscribed a med for add but it needs to be prior-authorized and that takes about 3 years.
I have become more cynical. I have been feeling lonely. I have been worrying about the wrong things. I keep forgetting myself. Which reminds me, I'd better go take an iron pill. I have to take those yucky things to give myself a better chance at being myself.
I am trying not to be so reserved, for my own benefit. Hardly anybody will truly like me no matter what so I needn't spend so much energy trying as hard as I do. I get the logic. I feel as though I've always gotten the logic. But those feelings come anyways. They are unaffected by logic. :( Frustrating. I keep reminding myself and I keep forgetting. Maybe I need to consider some sort of reminder. But what? I would say this will require thought but chances are I won't bother thinking further.