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its times like these, where i have 2 tests tomorrow that i should be studying for, and im lacking sleep, that i decide to write in my livejournal.
to tell the truth, i've been thinking about writing in it for a while but my life has been sufficiently boring. i can safely say that this is one of my least favorite stages yet. i feel cliche because i know everyone goes through it.
lately ive let my mind wander to think about how certain things would be if a few things were different. and i've come to a realization that as much as things may change in a few months, there wont be much at all. i can fantasize about life being completely different, but i know i will have the same emotions on a lot of the same subjects. and that's the last thing i want. but i am not going to kick and scream about it. i'm going to keep my mouth shut because my problems dont compare to those of others close to me. i will try to embrace the future to the best of my ability, since i've accepted that it's inevitable and all.
for the first time in my life i want change so much. but i'm just afraid that it won't come soon enough, or at all.
this was an extremely vague post, sorry. im not even going to re read it.
to tell the truth, i've been thinking about writing in it for a while but my life has been sufficiently boring. i can safely say that this is one of my least favorite stages yet. i feel cliche because i know everyone goes through it.
lately ive let my mind wander to think about how certain things would be if a few things were different. and i've come to a realization that as much as things may change in a few months, there wont be much at all. i can fantasize about life being completely different, but i know i will have the same emotions on a lot of the same subjects. and that's the last thing i want. but i am not going to kick and scream about it. i'm going to keep my mouth shut because my problems dont compare to those of others close to me. i will try to embrace the future to the best of my ability, since i've accepted that it's inevitable and all.
for the first time in my life i want change so much. but i'm just afraid that it won't come soon enough, or at all.
this was an extremely vague post, sorry. im not even going to re read it.