Just tired of it all.
I don't know why people suprise me.
At this point they shouldn't.
Just as a living observation:
In general, not every case, but mostly in my experiences, the ones who claim to be so open-minded and are so unique and have spent their lives being judged for it, and are so angstly eager to be so unlike everyone else... well alot of the time these are the people who are the most judgemental and close-minded of them all.
I know I was.
In highschool I spent so much time and energy trying to separate myself from certain people. I tried to want nothing to do with the so-called "popular" crowd. I was just certain that I was above that. So I didn't go to basketball or football games, or any parties or events.
Instead I went to band shows and coffee shops. Which don't get me wrong, I loved everyone I hung out with in highschool, and at the time, these people were great and made those years fun for me.
But now I realize as I'm friends with all those people I avoided (not all, I was right about a few) but those are some of the best people I have ever met. And the nicest, and the most willing to accept people.
And when I really needed friends this year, they were who was there. While the people that I thought I could count on just used me for a cheap laugh... just because that is the kind of people they are, and I just didn't realize that at the time. And as it turned out, are just kind of mean. But that doesn't even bother me anymore, because I've learned kind of alot from it. The only thing that still bugs me is that if you don't like me anymore for whatever reason. Then leave me the fuck alone. I'd rather have nothing to do with each other, then deal with meaness and petty drama.
I'm just glad that I found out who I wanted to be friends with. And what to and not to be like. The only thing that sucks is that I feel so not apart of who I use to hang out with that I miss certain people, Ian and Tim most. But like sean, and andrea, and aubri, and so many other people that I really genuinly like alot.
Oh well, win and lose.
On a different note:
LacedPixie: is it bad that im considering going out to rent a marykate and ashley movie?
Rach293: not at all
that settles it.
At this point they shouldn't.
Just as a living observation:
In general, not every case, but mostly in my experiences, the ones who claim to be so open-minded and are so unique and have spent their lives being judged for it, and are so angstly eager to be so unlike everyone else... well alot of the time these are the people who are the most judgemental and close-minded of them all.
I know I was.
In highschool I spent so much time and energy trying to separate myself from certain people. I tried to want nothing to do with the so-called "popular" crowd. I was just certain that I was above that. So I didn't go to basketball or football games, or any parties or events.
Instead I went to band shows and coffee shops. Which don't get me wrong, I loved everyone I hung out with in highschool, and at the time, these people were great and made those years fun for me.
But now I realize as I'm friends with all those people I avoided (not all, I was right about a few) but those are some of the best people I have ever met. And the nicest, and the most willing to accept people.
And when I really needed friends this year, they were who was there. While the people that I thought I could count on just used me for a cheap laugh... just because that is the kind of people they are, and I just didn't realize that at the time. And as it turned out, are just kind of mean. But that doesn't even bother me anymore, because I've learned kind of alot from it. The only thing that still bugs me is that if you don't like me anymore for whatever reason. Then leave me the fuck alone. I'd rather have nothing to do with each other, then deal with meaness and petty drama.
I'm just glad that I found out who I wanted to be friends with. And what to and not to be like. The only thing that sucks is that I feel so not apart of who I use to hang out with that I miss certain people, Ian and Tim most. But like sean, and andrea, and aubri, and so many other people that I really genuinly like alot.
Oh well, win and lose.
On a different note:
LacedPixie: is it bad that im considering going out to rent a marykate and ashley movie?
Rach293: not at all
that settles it.