Don't bother trying to explain...
HAPPY 4 MONTHS, KYLE!!!
So this is my blurting entry... I won't go into much detail. I will just hit the surface of everything I feel right now so at least then I have addressed it. I look out the window and see the mountain. Such good memories... I have been in love with that mountain since I was a little girl. Now I have to chance to go there whenever I want. If the rain would cease I would be there now. It was perfect weather to be there yesterday... The wind, the sun, that oh so important of feeling needed and important to someone. I guess that is what I have longed for all my life. To mean something just for what and who I am not because I made myself a certain way. Those arms, the shade from the sun, the little kisses and touches, the fact that people see us and wish that they could be us, or are sick with jealousy.
My mom finally admits that I can love and am in love with Kyle. That made me so happy.
I still can't get over this weekend. It totally rocked me to my core. Kyle and I are going to have so many more "lazy sunday's". Words truly can't describe the feeling of being held up by someone else in water. The feeling of giving up totally and being saved by someone else. Someone that you care dearly for. I find myself thinking about Kyle and our future more and more everyday. I feel like this is normal. That when you love someone so intensely that they are in your every thought and dream. I feel so much more safe when I am in a thought of us... a memory of our time spent this weekend. I just hope that all of the plans for this weekend hold up and that I get to go see my baby. "The worst is over now and we can breathe again."
On another more upsetting note to myself, I found myself thinking about older memories. Things that I think really made my life, people that brought me here, I wouldn't change anything, for fear that one change might have this huge impact on me being where I am now.
*Love of my life - Dave Matthews Band*
Where you are, that抯 where I wanna be
And through your eyes, all the things I wanna see
And in the night, you are my dream
You're everything to me
You're the love of my life
And the breath in my prayers
Take my hand, lead me there
I can't forget the taste of your mouth
From your lips the heavens pour out
I can't forget when we are one
With you alone I am free
Everyday, every night, you alone
You're the love of my life
Everyday, every night, you alone,
You're the love of my life
We go dancing in the moonlight
With the starlight in your eyes
We go dancing till the sunrise
You and me we're gonna dance, dance, dance
So this is my blurting entry... I won't go into much detail. I will just hit the surface of everything I feel right now so at least then I have addressed it. I look out the window and see the mountain. Such good memories... I have been in love with that mountain since I was a little girl. Now I have to chance to go there whenever I want. If the rain would cease I would be there now. It was perfect weather to be there yesterday... The wind, the sun, that oh so important of feeling needed and important to someone. I guess that is what I have longed for all my life. To mean something just for what and who I am not because I made myself a certain way. Those arms, the shade from the sun, the little kisses and touches, the fact that people see us and wish that they could be us, or are sick with jealousy.
My mom finally admits that I can love and am in love with Kyle. That made me so happy.
I still can't get over this weekend. It totally rocked me to my core. Kyle and I are going to have so many more "lazy sunday's". Words truly can't describe the feeling of being held up by someone else in water. The feeling of giving up totally and being saved by someone else. Someone that you care dearly for. I find myself thinking about Kyle and our future more and more everyday. I feel like this is normal. That when you love someone so intensely that they are in your every thought and dream. I feel so much more safe when I am in a thought of us... a memory of our time spent this weekend. I just hope that all of the plans for this weekend hold up and that I get to go see my baby. "The worst is over now and we can breathe again."
On another more upsetting note to myself, I found myself thinking about older memories. Things that I think really made my life, people that brought me here, I wouldn't change anything, for fear that one change might have this huge impact on me being where I am now.
*Love of my life - Dave Matthews Band*
Where you are, that抯 where I wanna be
And through your eyes, all the things I wanna see
And in the night, you are my dream
You're everything to me
You're the love of my life
And the breath in my prayers
Take my hand, lead me there
I can't forget the taste of your mouth
From your lips the heavens pour out
I can't forget when we are one
With you alone I am free
Everyday, every night, you alone
You're the love of my life
Everyday, every night, you alone,
You're the love of my life
We go dancing in the moonlight
With the starlight in your eyes
We go dancing till the sunrise
You and me we're gonna dance, dance, dance