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In response to a post by child0fbalance in otherkin I was able to look closer at myself and see this for what it is. Can I deny what I am? No. The reason for it is below .
I have always considered myself a very literal-minded person, so when I personally started awakening, it was a very odd experience. With each new thing I experienced, it was frightening, and I was always trying to find ways to negate what was happening, even trying to ignore it all. One thing I did figure out, is if it is ignored and pushed away, things do not go well for me, and I become stressed out and cannot think clearly in anything at all. I learned quickly to just let it flow, analyze what is happening and go from there.
I've never been one for fantasies, as when I would think about something, I would apply my thinking until things either dispursed or I was forced to look further when an idea or thought would not go away. I've learned that those things that do not dispurse are there for a reason. So much of what I have experienced, and what continues to be experienced to this day, though they cannot be explained scientifically, can also not be explained away. They stay, they are. I am what I am. I do not completely understand why, but I accept it, as to deny it causes problems emotionally and physically.
If accepting these things is healthy to me, then why should I deny them when I suffer greatly with depression and physical illness when I do not accept them? I have heard and spoken with so many people who have started to awaken and freaked out, trying to deny it all, and become mentally and physically incapable of living a normal life. Even those who are Not OK suffer greatly when they deny something about themselves that goes against social norm. Should these people be given meds to negate their emotions and affect their bodies when accepting a truth about themselves will just ease the symptoms greatly? Not to get off track, but it seems to fit so well, but I have known and met a number of gay individuals who, when they were open and accepting of their tendancies were happy and healthy, while those who denied it suffered greatly mentally and physically.
Another thing I have noticed, is that when I am content in my life is also when my inner self has more expression, yet when I become depressed and stressed about my daily living situation, then my inner side steps back and does not press the issue until my stresses and depression is relieved. If meds are taken to relieve the depression, then the OK'ness just comes back out again, not go away. Yes. I have taken meds for depression and anxiety, and once relieved, the OK'ness DID come back.
Why is that? I have seen some say that I am crazy and need help for what I believe in myself. But do I really need help to stop my so-called "self-delusions" when I am not depressed by them? When those "delusions" do not interfere with my life but even help me to remain happy and content and healthy? When those "delusions" are not even present when I do experience too much stress in my life, but only return when I am balanced again?
If a person is stable in life and is awakened, and continues to be stable with the acceptance of his/her OK'ness, then why interfere with a good thing? The old adage of "If it's not broke, then don't fix it" seems very apt here.
Personally, who cares if Science has not found a way to prove a person's OK'ness, as long as the person is healthy, happy and living a life that is not putting them in a looney-ward for announcing to the world that he or she is a dragon or wolf or elf.
Besides, how many people do such a thing? Not many, but even the Lizard Man and Cat Man are not sitting in looney-wards, because they are not a hazard to the world at large and appear to be living happy healthy lives.
I have always considered myself a very literal-minded person, so when I personally started awakening, it was a very odd experience. With each new thing I experienced, it was frightening, and I was always trying to find ways to negate what was happening, even trying to ignore it all. One thing I did figure out, is if it is ignored and pushed away, things do not go well for me, and I become stressed out and cannot think clearly in anything at all. I learned quickly to just let it flow, analyze what is happening and go from there.
I've never been one for fantasies, as when I would think about something, I would apply my thinking until things either dispursed or I was forced to look further when an idea or thought would not go away. I've learned that those things that do not dispurse are there for a reason. So much of what I have experienced, and what continues to be experienced to this day, though they cannot be explained scientifically, can also not be explained away. They stay, they are. I am what I am. I do not completely understand why, but I accept it, as to deny it causes problems emotionally and physically.
If accepting these things is healthy to me, then why should I deny them when I suffer greatly with depression and physical illness when I do not accept them? I have heard and spoken with so many people who have started to awaken and freaked out, trying to deny it all, and become mentally and physically incapable of living a normal life. Even those who are Not OK suffer greatly when they deny something about themselves that goes against social norm. Should these people be given meds to negate their emotions and affect their bodies when accepting a truth about themselves will just ease the symptoms greatly? Not to get off track, but it seems to fit so well, but I have known and met a number of gay individuals who, when they were open and accepting of their tendancies were happy and healthy, while those who denied it suffered greatly mentally and physically.
Another thing I have noticed, is that when I am content in my life is also when my inner self has more expression, yet when I become depressed and stressed about my daily living situation, then my inner side steps back and does not press the issue until my stresses and depression is relieved. If meds are taken to relieve the depression, then the OK'ness just comes back out again, not go away. Yes. I have taken meds for depression and anxiety, and once relieved, the OK'ness DID come back.
Why is that? I have seen some say that I am crazy and need help for what I believe in myself. But do I really need help to stop my so-called "self-delusions" when I am not depressed by them? When those "delusions" do not interfere with my life but even help me to remain happy and content and healthy? When those "delusions" are not even present when I do experience too much stress in my life, but only return when I am balanced again?
If a person is stable in life and is awakened, and continues to be stable with the acceptance of his/her OK'ness, then why interfere with a good thing? The old adage of "If it's not broke, then don't fix it" seems very apt here.
Personally, who cares if Science has not found a way to prove a person's OK'ness, as long as the person is healthy, happy and living a life that is not putting them in a looney-ward for announcing to the world that he or she is a dragon or wolf or elf.
Besides, how many people do such a thing? Not many, but even the Lizard Man and Cat Man are not sitting in looney-wards, because they are not a hazard to the world at large and appear to be living happy healthy lives.