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Seriously,
I may be rising into a spiritual high, but I am just not able to spare all my attention to try and figure out who is hanging over my shoulder.
At times I just want to say, "Leave off, already!" because it seems once they know I'm aware, they keep bugging and bugging and bugging.
Ok, Ok. I'm coming closer to a harsh awakening, it always happens this way, but geesh. I'm seriously busy these days and can't spend quiet, personal, alone time to focus more on the Out.
This morning was bad enough just trying to brush aside a demand to keep reading an LJ post in dearestangels when I had to get out to catch my bus - 3 blocks away - and before my toddler work up to demand my attention and make me late to work again. No. Guarantees that the I won't miss my bus don't cut it. Physically Show me I can get to the bus-stop at light speed, then I'll listen to you next time. (Seriously, I was being shown an idea that I would zip down the road at several times my normal speed - like someone "jumping" from one place to another. Like time was going to be slowed down for me.)
If I focus ever so gently, I can still see/feel whoever is there. Gabriel still comes to mind, but seriously, I cannot verify that. It doesn't feel like Roberan. He's a very specific feeling, and one I haven't felt in ... years.
Gods, I miss WyndGoddess. I haven't heard from her in ages. I think the only reason I met Roberan was because of WyndGoddess. Her Avatar - same goddess as Roberan's - was a long lost mate of Robe's. Go figure. ((after edit insert)name Spelling? I'd have to look at my webpage, I'm lost and he's poking fun at me.)
Ahh, fun, lost times.
Well, I guess not completely lost. He's still watching over me. Since he just gave me a poke. *grin* I feel so loved. *snicker*
Anyway gotta go. Work, yanno.
I may be rising into a spiritual high, but I am just not able to spare all my attention to try and figure out who is hanging over my shoulder.
At times I just want to say, "Leave off, already!" because it seems once they know I'm aware, they keep bugging and bugging and bugging.
Ok, Ok. I'm coming closer to a harsh awakening, it always happens this way, but geesh. I'm seriously busy these days and can't spend quiet, personal, alone time to focus more on the Out.
This morning was bad enough just trying to brush aside a demand to keep reading an LJ post in dearestangels when I had to get out to catch my bus - 3 blocks away - and before my toddler work up to demand my attention and make me late to work again. No. Guarantees that the I won't miss my bus don't cut it. Physically Show me I can get to the bus-stop at light speed, then I'll listen to you next time. (Seriously, I was being shown an idea that I would zip down the road at several times my normal speed - like someone "jumping" from one place to another. Like time was going to be slowed down for me.)
If I focus ever so gently, I can still see/feel whoever is there. Gabriel still comes to mind, but seriously, I cannot verify that. It doesn't feel like Roberan. He's a very specific feeling, and one I haven't felt in ... years.
Gods, I miss WyndGoddess. I haven't heard from her in ages. I think the only reason I met Roberan was because of WyndGoddess. Her Avatar - same goddess as Roberan's - was a long lost mate of Robe's. Go figure. ((after edit insert)name Spelling? I'd have to look at my webpage, I'm lost and he's poking fun at me.)
Ahh, fun, lost times.
Well, I guess not completely lost. He's still watching over me. Since he just gave me a poke. *grin* I feel so loved. *snicker*
Anyway gotta go. Work, yanno.