Just a thought
When I first started the major changes in awakening, I was not practicing anything religious. Born into a christian family I was, and just went to church as a matter of course. I generally went with whoever took me.
My first adult years I went with my mother, then with my first husband. I could never get into the fuss and bother that everyone adhered to. After the birth of my first son, I did become babtised on the same day my son was. All I knew was that I needed that little extra "protection" as I felt odd things happening to me and no way to understand them.
Over the years I quit going to church as the energies there were conflicting with mine, causing discomfort. After the birth of my daughter, I tried again, for her sake, as I still was unsure of myself with no true spiritual knowledge. My daughter was baptised before she was 1yo. After that, I could not commit myself to continue to attend.
For many years I practiced no religion, but grew spiritually. I learned basic protections and modified them for my own use. I looked many times into Wicca, but could never feel comfortable joining anything, due to the fact that I don't like to conform to anyone else. My learnings were sporadic and undefined, except by whim and need.
One could say I was "Lost" without a religion. An odd feeling right now gives me the feeling that something was Dead inside of me and I feel a great loss from it. How strange. - Of course, it could be something else entirely, as I've connections to other people, and it wouldn't be the first time I felt someone else's loss.
Something I read today just instilled in me the need to clarify the fact that my awakening was not influenced by some religion or other. I was just finally ready to accept that part of myself, and understand it. That understanding something I didn't have when I first hinted at awakening when I was but 13 or so, and again at 18, 19 and 20.
My next post should just be a continuation of the story of my awakening. =)
My first adult years I went with my mother, then with my first husband. I could never get into the fuss and bother that everyone adhered to. After the birth of my first son, I did become babtised on the same day my son was. All I knew was that I needed that little extra "protection" as I felt odd things happening to me and no way to understand them.
Over the years I quit going to church as the energies there were conflicting with mine, causing discomfort. After the birth of my daughter, I tried again, for her sake, as I still was unsure of myself with no true spiritual knowledge. My daughter was baptised before she was 1yo. After that, I could not commit myself to continue to attend.
For many years I practiced no religion, but grew spiritually. I learned basic protections and modified them for my own use. I looked many times into Wicca, but could never feel comfortable joining anything, due to the fact that I don't like to conform to anyone else. My learnings were sporadic and undefined, except by whim and need.
One could say I was "Lost" without a religion. An odd feeling right now gives me the feeling that something was Dead inside of me and I feel a great loss from it. How strange. - Of course, it could be something else entirely, as I've connections to other people, and it wouldn't be the first time I felt someone else's loss.
Something I read today just instilled in me the need to clarify the fact that my awakening was not influenced by some religion or other. I was just finally ready to accept that part of myself, and understand it. That understanding something I didn't have when I first hinted at awakening when I was but 13 or so, and again at 18, 19 and 20.
My next post should just be a continuation of the story of my awakening. =)