2 fics for challenge #56
Title:Dont say Goodbye
Rating/Warnings: g
Characters/Pairing: Remus/Tonks
Summary: Letting her go is much harder than Remus anticipated.
Word Count:488
Author's Notes: Le Angst is so much fun.
Registered purchases?: both!
He was staring at her with eyes full of sadness, eyes silently asking her to forgive him for what he was doing. But she couldn’t forgive him. She couldn’t let him do this. So she just stared determinedly back.
“I,” she said with clenched teeth, “am an Auror.”
“You’re 24.” He replied quietly. “I’m 37. Don’t you see the problem with that?”
Stubbornly she shook her head, crossing her arms. A picture of defiance. “Don’t.” she whispered. “Don’t Remus. Not now.”
“I have to.” He pushed his hands further into his pockets. “We can’t… you can’t… not with a werewolf. Not with me.”
“Why not?” She was glaring, bottom lip sticking out. Really she was trying not to cry.
“Because I’ll ruin your life. And you’ll wish you’d never met me when you lose your job, and all your friends, and your family... you think you won’t mind when they’re all disgusted by you, but you will. And you won’t want to be alone with me then.”
“But Remus, don’t you see?” she looked like she might cry now, grabbing his patched sweater in her hands. “If they won’t accept that I love you, they’re not real friends! And I don’t care! You know people who don’t care about your lycanthropy, I don’t need-”
“And they’re all dying Nymphadora! Everyone I care about dies! I will not add your name to the list, you hear me?” angrily, he pulled her hands off, ignoring her pained face.
She shook her head. “You’re too noble for your own good, you know.” She murmured.
He clenched his fists, pretending not to hear. “Besides,” he continued, “I... I don’t love you anyway.”
Her arms fell loosely to her sides from their defiant position over her chest. All pretence was gone from her face. Remus realised now he had never seen her cry before.
Well, there’s a first time for everything.
“Fine.” She finally breathed, after a long pause spent trying to hold herself together. “Fine.” A solitary tear made its lonely path down her check. She didn’t notice. But he did. And it hurt to see.
“Okay then.” He said slowly. Cautiously.
Her eyes flashed. “Fine! Go get yourself killed! But don’t worry, because I’ll be waiting here, alone and safe.”
“Fine.” He said firmly, and turned, leaving. He slammed the door loudly behind him.
“No.” She whispered to herself. “No.” Then louder- “Remus!” she pulled the door open, running after him. “I didn’t mean it, please don’t-”
There was a crack as he apparated away.
“-go.” Too late. He had left her. Not only was she alone, but in a war like this... she was helpless.
“Come back. Please.” She pleaded with the empty street, as the lonely tear fell to the cold ground. There was no one to hear her plead, and no one to see her cry.
It was such a big world, and Tonks had never felt smaller.
Title: Alone in the Dark.
Rating/Warnings:pg
Characters/Pairing: Tonks
Summary: She feels so alone now.
Word Count:247
Author's Notes: once again, le angst is fuuuuun!!!
Registered purchases?: again, both.
It was dark, so dark. And yet the sun was shining.
Betrayal had swallowed her in darkness so black she didn’t know if her eyes were open or closed anymore. She didn’t know how she had let him throw her this far down, into a pit of dark, endless despair. This darkness was enveloping her, changing her. She could no longer change her hair. She couldn’t smile. All she wanted was to sit in this darkness she had been thrown in, sit in it and cry.
Life had other plans.
The bruises, the tears, the heartbreak- they were all hidden. No one could see them. She was so confused- he said he loved her. Then he went and did this. And until she could get out- get out of this cycle of abuse- she would never know anything different.
Tonks hadn’t been held and told she was loved and wanted for a long time.
She could slam the walls, bruise herself, cry until she was out of tears, and do it all over again- but it wouldn’t change the fact that Remus Lupin had broken her heart. And a broken heart continues to beat, so she continued to live.
At night, she could hold herself tight, hold herself together, and whisper that he would see what he was doing to her. He would see the pain, and he would make things right.
But she needed him to mend her heart. And it was getting beyond mending now.
POINTS:
247+488/30=24
+20 (bonus items per fic) 44 Points for Gryffindor!
Gini//Gryffindor
Rating/Warnings: g
Characters/Pairing: Remus/Tonks
Summary: Letting her go is much harder than Remus anticipated.
Word Count:488
Author's Notes: Le Angst is so much fun.
Registered purchases?: both!
He was staring at her with eyes full of sadness, eyes silently asking her to forgive him for what he was doing. But she couldn’t forgive him. She couldn’t let him do this. So she just stared determinedly back.
“I,” she said with clenched teeth, “am an Auror.”
“You’re 24.” He replied quietly. “I’m 37. Don’t you see the problem with that?”
Stubbornly she shook her head, crossing her arms. A picture of defiance. “Don’t.” she whispered. “Don’t Remus. Not now.”
“I have to.” He pushed his hands further into his pockets. “We can’t… you can’t… not with a werewolf. Not with me.”
“Why not?” She was glaring, bottom lip sticking out. Really she was trying not to cry.
“Because I’ll ruin your life. And you’ll wish you’d never met me when you lose your job, and all your friends, and your family... you think you won’t mind when they’re all disgusted by you, but you will. And you won’t want to be alone with me then.”
“But Remus, don’t you see?” she looked like she might cry now, grabbing his patched sweater in her hands. “If they won’t accept that I love you, they’re not real friends! And I don’t care! You know people who don’t care about your lycanthropy, I don’t need-”
“And they’re all dying Nymphadora! Everyone I care about dies! I will not add your name to the list, you hear me?” angrily, he pulled her hands off, ignoring her pained face.
She shook her head. “You’re too noble for your own good, you know.” She murmured.
He clenched his fists, pretending not to hear. “Besides,” he continued, “I... I don’t love you anyway.”
Her arms fell loosely to her sides from their defiant position over her chest. All pretence was gone from her face. Remus realised now he had never seen her cry before.
Well, there’s a first time for everything.
“Fine.” She finally breathed, after a long pause spent trying to hold herself together. “Fine.” A solitary tear made its lonely path down her check. She didn’t notice. But he did. And it hurt to see.
“Okay then.” He said slowly. Cautiously.
Her eyes flashed. “Fine! Go get yourself killed! But don’t worry, because I’ll be waiting here, alone and safe.”
“Fine.” He said firmly, and turned, leaving. He slammed the door loudly behind him.
“No.” She whispered to herself. “No.” Then louder- “Remus!” she pulled the door open, running after him. “I didn’t mean it, please don’t-”
There was a crack as he apparated away.
“-go.” Too late. He had left her. Not only was she alone, but in a war like this... she was helpless.
“Come back. Please.” She pleaded with the empty street, as the lonely tear fell to the cold ground. There was no one to hear her plead, and no one to see her cry.
It was such a big world, and Tonks had never felt smaller.
Title: Alone in the Dark.
Rating/Warnings:pg
Characters/Pairing: Tonks
Summary: She feels so alone now.
Word Count:247
Author's Notes: once again, le angst is fuuuuun!!!
Registered purchases?: again, both.
It was dark, so dark. And yet the sun was shining.
Betrayal had swallowed her in darkness so black she didn’t know if her eyes were open or closed anymore. She didn’t know how she had let him throw her this far down, into a pit of dark, endless despair. This darkness was enveloping her, changing her. She could no longer change her hair. She couldn’t smile. All she wanted was to sit in this darkness she had been thrown in, sit in it and cry.
Life had other plans.
The bruises, the tears, the heartbreak- they were all hidden. No one could see them. She was so confused- he said he loved her. Then he went and did this. And until she could get out- get out of this cycle of abuse- she would never know anything different.
Tonks hadn’t been held and told she was loved and wanted for a long time.
She could slam the walls, bruise herself, cry until she was out of tears, and do it all over again- but it wouldn’t change the fact that Remus Lupin had broken her heart. And a broken heart continues to beat, so she continued to live.
At night, she could hold herself tight, hold herself together, and whisper that he would see what he was doing to her. He would see the pain, and he would make things right.
But she needed him to mend her heart. And it was getting beyond mending now.
POINTS:
247+488/30=24
+20 (bonus items per fic) 44 Points for Gryffindor!
Gini//Gryffindor