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I am beginning to fall for CD-WOW. I guess it has a lot to do with my music choice, but the idea of getting all your CD's for 8.99 including delivery, seems unreal. I have started going into stores here and listening to albums I like then buying them online.
You know when things start to go right, then something goes wrong. My father is still in hospital his three day stay seems to be taking longer than originally imagined, he might still be in there next week when I get down to see him. I am not sure what I am meant to do, I know this sounds odd, but I guess all I can do is give him my time.
I am sad, or unhappy in a way, I don't know how to explain it. In a way it has been like this for years, I know kind of why. At boarding school you have a dependence on those around you, they are you friends and in a way they are your family. This could explain why my friends feel closer to me than my family. This also gives me a dependence in a way on my friends, it is hard not having a best friend to tell things to, I miss Paul. I know he is only a phone call away, but the comfort of knowing he is there near by has been removed. I know these feelings started when he left school in 93' and I know that it will never be as it was then, but I do miss having that closeness with someone who is right there in front of you. I know it can never be the same, I just wish we were closer to each other sometimes. He is only in Birmingham, but it is to far just to pop in and say hi, and it is too far just to get a hug.
I know this sounds kind of serious, but I guess it is only a nagging feeling, I meant I am happy, but I miss things about my friends.
I am starting to write all these essays I have to hand in by next January, I don't understand why we have to hand in all our work on one day at the end of the semester, this kind of pisses me off. I guess in the long term it will prove time management.
This week I need to be super organised as I am going to London on Thursday, from Friday to Sunday I am cooking or helping cook at a drama training weekend for the Leaveners.
You know when things start to go right, then something goes wrong. My father is still in hospital his three day stay seems to be taking longer than originally imagined, he might still be in there next week when I get down to see him. I am not sure what I am meant to do, I know this sounds odd, but I guess all I can do is give him my time.
I am sad, or unhappy in a way, I don't know how to explain it. In a way it has been like this for years, I know kind of why. At boarding school you have a dependence on those around you, they are you friends and in a way they are your family. This could explain why my friends feel closer to me than my family. This also gives me a dependence in a way on my friends, it is hard not having a best friend to tell things to, I miss Paul. I know he is only a phone call away, but the comfort of knowing he is there near by has been removed. I know these feelings started when he left school in 93' and I know that it will never be as it was then, but I do miss having that closeness with someone who is right there in front of you. I know it can never be the same, I just wish we were closer to each other sometimes. He is only in Birmingham, but it is to far just to pop in and say hi, and it is too far just to get a hug.
I know this sounds kind of serious, but I guess it is only a nagging feeling, I meant I am happy, but I miss things about my friends.
I am starting to write all these essays I have to hand in by next January, I don't understand why we have to hand in all our work on one day at the end of the semester, this kind of pisses me off. I guess in the long term it will prove time management.
This week I need to be super organised as I am going to London on Thursday, from Friday to Sunday I am cooking or helping cook at a drama training weekend for the Leaveners.