Sleep...
So I know I don't have the best of sleeping patterns but I am a bit worried by what is happening at the moment, I am having a re-occurring dream about going out on a rowing boat without ores onto an icy lake, then at some point the boat tips over and I don't fight and drown. Then I wake up. I can't describe it as a nightmare as I actually seem to make the decision not to fight drowning and feel slightly at peace with that, but that in it self worries me.