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People come and go through your life like changing seasons right?
I am really contemplative today. I am in a living room and Im on the internet and my car is in a garage and there is a kitchen only 40 feet from me but i am in mexico. Did I trade away who I am for $80k a year or whatever it is that I make? I don't even really know or care all too much about the money.
Sometimes I dont know if I made the right choices and if I left Wyandotte behind or ran away from it. One of the things I prided myself on a long time ago was the ability to maintain contact with all the important people in my life and I liked casting a wide net. Now I've been making choices and so have everyone else in where the net gets more narrow and Im whittling people away and consequently other people are doing the same to me.
Now I have "names I havent thought about in years" and Im probably a name someone hasn't thought about in years and thats unnerving to me. Sometimes I worry that I've mortgaged too much of myself or became too serious or just forgot what I was like. I don't know. I guess I don't really fit in to this facebook generation or the life of a lot of mid 20-somethings that most of my old friends are.
I'm very lucky, I know that in general, I have worked extremely hard to get where I am, and don't feel the need to make excuses. I don't envy my friends or compare my life to theirs but today is one of those times where im questioning my choices i guess. i dont know
I am really contemplative today. I am in a living room and Im on the internet and my car is in a garage and there is a kitchen only 40 feet from me but i am in mexico. Did I trade away who I am for $80k a year or whatever it is that I make? I don't even really know or care all too much about the money.
Sometimes I dont know if I made the right choices and if I left Wyandotte behind or ran away from it. One of the things I prided myself on a long time ago was the ability to maintain contact with all the important people in my life and I liked casting a wide net. Now I've been making choices and so have everyone else in where the net gets more narrow and Im whittling people away and consequently other people are doing the same to me.
Now I have "names I havent thought about in years" and Im probably a name someone hasn't thought about in years and thats unnerving to me. Sometimes I worry that I've mortgaged too much of myself or became too serious or just forgot what I was like. I don't know. I guess I don't really fit in to this facebook generation or the life of a lot of mid 20-somethings that most of my old friends are.
I'm very lucky, I know that in general, I have worked extremely hard to get where I am, and don't feel the need to make excuses. I don't envy my friends or compare my life to theirs but today is one of those times where im questioning my choices i guess. i dont know