ah...
ah, so much to do. there are several levels to this.
initially, I'm delving into what it means to be truly masculine... and grace abounds. I know my search will be rewarded. But in my compulsiveness, perhaps overzeal, or perhaps perfectly appropriate drives that need to be channeled into the correct present contexts --- I'm not sure yet --- I want to work for something now. I'm hoping its a passing phase, because I do not see it bearing fruit in myself. But I can't communicate the presence of God I'm experiencing. It is too much for words! But I suppose patience is in order, as it always is. (St. Francis de Sales, pray for us!) ;) So that is the first level, my desire to channel this zeal into some fruitful practice.
the second level is a sort of realization-based tier. I think my present zeal isn't bearing fruit because this level needs time and prayer to become more fully revealed to me. the question here is, where do I apply myself, and in what manner? where can I start, as one trying to be fully masculine, to fight the spiritual battle for life, for truth, for the family, for the dignity of women, for the Church, etc, large-scale? so this second level is an internal formation, by grace, through mother, from Christ. in the context of time, it will unfold. which leads to the third level.
the third level is actual practice. the first is what I want to do, the second is how and when I will do it, and the third is what I'm doing now. I think I need to keep waiting, keep waiting for the second level to develop, and keep waiting for a more full revelation of God's will for me, to me. so the answer is, as it always is for myself and for everyone, to be all for Christ. in my case, to be all for Him through Mary, and the rest will come. level three... I like the number three.
initially, I'm delving into what it means to be truly masculine... and grace abounds. I know my search will be rewarded. But in my compulsiveness, perhaps overzeal, or perhaps perfectly appropriate drives that need to be channeled into the correct present contexts --- I'm not sure yet --- I want to work for something now. I'm hoping its a passing phase, because I do not see it bearing fruit in myself. But I can't communicate the presence of God I'm experiencing. It is too much for words! But I suppose patience is in order, as it always is. (St. Francis de Sales, pray for us!) ;) So that is the first level, my desire to channel this zeal into some fruitful practice.
the second level is a sort of realization-based tier. I think my present zeal isn't bearing fruit because this level needs time and prayer to become more fully revealed to me. the question here is, where do I apply myself, and in what manner? where can I start, as one trying to be fully masculine, to fight the spiritual battle for life, for truth, for the family, for the dignity of women, for the Church, etc, large-scale? so this second level is an internal formation, by grace, through mother, from Christ. in the context of time, it will unfold. which leads to the third level.
the third level is actual practice. the first is what I want to do, the second is how and when I will do it, and the third is what I'm doing now. I think I need to keep waiting, keep waiting for the second level to develop, and keep waiting for a more full revelation of God's will for me, to me. so the answer is, as it always is for myself and for everyone, to be all for Christ. in my case, to be all for Him through Mary, and the rest will come. level three... I like the number three.