RE: Re: thank you :)plectrumkeyApril 11 2018, 12:34:06 UTC
hi, it would have been helpful if you had stated you were referring to the time (when i was 7) that I did believe, because that vanished when i realised that whatever is i prayed to, did not care. if he is so wonderful, then why are so many kids raped? anyone .. for that matter?)
whatever it is you tell me about why you believe .. im sorry it means zero to me because in my experience there is nobody up there. who ignores a plea from a 7 year old who asks "please make him stop hurting me." that to me is not something i want any involvement with. you can keep your faith, and i mean that in a transparent, i'm keeping away from all things toxic - context.
as i said .. prayers mean nothing to me, and i don't find the expression any comfort. not since i was let down and left to suffer. now if you'll excuse me, i shall go and try to cope wit hthe lack ofs leep inflicted by a neighbour each night (and which cause me pain to blink as i get so little sleep)
i rather pause this type of conversation for when i feel better able. though at present i doubt this mess will end, as landlord seems perfectly fine with abuse (triggers again.. )
whatever it is you tell me about why you believe .. im sorry it means zero to me because in my experience there is nobody up there. who ignores a plea from a 7 year old who asks "please make him stop hurting me." that to me is not something i want any involvement with.
you can keep your faith, and i mean that in a transparent, i'm keeping away from all things toxic - context.
as i said .. prayers mean nothing to me, and i don't find the expression any comfort. not since i was let down and left to suffer.
now if you'll excuse me, i shall go and try to cope wit hthe lack ofs leep inflicted by a neighbour each night (and which cause me pain to blink as i get so little sleep)
i rather pause this type of conversation for when i feel better able. though at present i doubt this mess will end, as landlord seems perfectly fine with abuse (triggers again.. )
bye for now. take care.
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