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''Leave me alone, leave me alone, leave me alone AHHHHHHH'' Thats all i ever hear coming from his mouth anymore. Its quite annoying and im getting quite sick of it to be frank. Fuck that dude why should i let him talk to me like that. He thinks im a doll , he can just say and do what ever he wants with me, throw me around and verbally abuse me. And reason being because? Id really like to know. Fuck caring anymore. Why does it matter if its all just some sort of act in a way. How do I know how the kid really feels when im soo scared of what hes really thinking. Does he really like me anymore, why did I just say that, What if tomorrows the day that he is in that mood to say ''Hey...were on break starting now...''.. i guess i will never know to be honest. Its all just one big whirl wind that is constantly moving and doesnt stop. I am happy.The point is...Hes not. And what the hell is the point of doing this if one person out of this is not happy..im constantly twirling my ring hoping that the pact is still safe. Ah, who knows anymore. I mean...i hope that it is ...actually I dont even know.. Im just rambling. Im just speechless.. I dont know how to take it when someone is constantly telling me to leave them alone. Those are the main words that really effect me for some strange apparent reason and I dont know why. I wish he just wouldnt even answer his phone calls just so I dont have to hear them.