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ahh
i dont really know what to even say except that its late and i cant sleep.
tonight i was supposed to get really wasted, but for some reason, i didnt. doesn't it always happen that way though?
i saw my mom today.
for some reason, i just get so upset when i see her. today she was telling me this story about how she had this allergic reaction and how she woke up and the whole side of her face was like swelled up and when she was telling me it i couldnt help but want to cry. because i just cant help but think of her waking up by herself and realizing something was wrong. who wants to be alone when they know theyre sick, or at least when they know they have a reaction to something. i know its not my fault.. and i know that i have nothing to do with it, but its my mom.. and i love her and theres just nothing i can do to help her and it seriously hurts me every day.
i dont really know what to even say except that its late and i cant sleep.
tonight i was supposed to get really wasted, but for some reason, i didnt. doesn't it always happen that way though?
i saw my mom today.
for some reason, i just get so upset when i see her. today she was telling me this story about how she had this allergic reaction and how she woke up and the whole side of her face was like swelled up and when she was telling me it i couldnt help but want to cry. because i just cant help but think of her waking up by herself and realizing something was wrong. who wants to be alone when they know theyre sick, or at least when they know they have a reaction to something. i know its not my fault.. and i know that i have nothing to do with it, but its my mom.. and i love her and theres just nothing i can do to help her and it seriously hurts me every day.