Oh man.
Yeah so the whole freaking out about the midterms died off pretty quickly after I went home on thursday afternoon.
Thank god for that.
I think I really have that seasonal depression thing. I seem to get really down this time of year. More than usual, like if I look at my entries from the spring and summer, it's different.
Tonight I just realized that I really hold my friends up to this really high standard, like they're on a pedestal basically. But for some reason, I never feel like I'm that way for my friends. I guess that's kind of a selfish thing to say? But I guess I just don't feel valuable.
This isn't some kind of fishing for compliments thing. I really just feel like that. Like no matter what I do, someone else will come along and do something and get this huge fanfare and even if I did something way better I still just get oh Lauren did blah blah blah.
Yeah maybe I am oversensitive. It's the way I am. Fuck that.
I talked to Meg today though and she made me feel alot better. Yeah. One of the people who make me feel better is moving to Japan.
Have I mentioned that I LOVE my life?
Yeah, I'm a very bad liar.
Thank god for that.
I think I really have that seasonal depression thing. I seem to get really down this time of year. More than usual, like if I look at my entries from the spring and summer, it's different.
Tonight I just realized that I really hold my friends up to this really high standard, like they're on a pedestal basically. But for some reason, I never feel like I'm that way for my friends. I guess that's kind of a selfish thing to say? But I guess I just don't feel valuable.
This isn't some kind of fishing for compliments thing. I really just feel like that. Like no matter what I do, someone else will come along and do something and get this huge fanfare and even if I did something way better I still just get oh Lauren did blah blah blah.
Yeah maybe I am oversensitive. It's the way I am. Fuck that.
I talked to Meg today though and she made me feel alot better. Yeah. One of the people who make me feel better is moving to Japan.
Have I mentioned that I LOVE my life?
Yeah, I'm a very bad liar.