UPDATE ON MY LIFE. READ
So yeah.. big update since last time I posted.
Sunday I'm at work.. Jason comes over to me and is like go in the office. I'm thinking oh shit im gonna get yelled at or something, nope. Grace says "You're mom's on the phone."
Of course I'm like oh shittt.
Well I get on the phone with her and she says I love you, I miss you, I'm sorry.
WHAT?!?!
So how about I'm sitting there having no idea what the fuck to say!
I was at work so I just kind of said okay I miss you too, I'm going to call you when I get home. So I did.
She tells me that she had like a breakdown or something a week ago and she was in the hospital and she has to go to a psychiatrist. She also said she stopped drinking and then actually asked me how school was. She asked me how my roommate was and if I liked school and how my grades were. It was like normal conversation that should have taken place a year ago.
Yeah.
She just kept saying how proud she was of me and how she missed me. And she said that she wants to meet up with me soon. And she sent me back my hs ring and sent me a note with it.
And that she's gonna do the fafsa..
Honestly, I don't even know what to think of this anymore. I'm so many emotions right now.. scared, angry, happy, sad, untrusting, excited.. everything.
I mean Grace said "This is what you want." And yeah, I do want her to be normal and shit, but I don't know if its really gonna happen.
I'm so scared that shes gonna go psycho again. No I'm not gonna go living with her again all of the sudden, but I just don't want to start a friendship with her, or a mother/daughter relationship rather, well I don't want to do that again and then she just goes ape again.
It's really just crazy.
I just hope it works out =/
Sunday I'm at work.. Jason comes over to me and is like go in the office. I'm thinking oh shit im gonna get yelled at or something, nope. Grace says "You're mom's on the phone."
Of course I'm like oh shittt.
Well I get on the phone with her and she says I love you, I miss you, I'm sorry.
WHAT?!?!
So how about I'm sitting there having no idea what the fuck to say!
I was at work so I just kind of said okay I miss you too, I'm going to call you when I get home. So I did.
She tells me that she had like a breakdown or something a week ago and she was in the hospital and she has to go to a psychiatrist. She also said she stopped drinking and then actually asked me how school was. She asked me how my roommate was and if I liked school and how my grades were. It was like normal conversation that should have taken place a year ago.
Yeah.
She just kept saying how proud she was of me and how she missed me. And she said that she wants to meet up with me soon. And she sent me back my hs ring and sent me a note with it.
And that she's gonna do the fafsa..
Honestly, I don't even know what to think of this anymore. I'm so many emotions right now.. scared, angry, happy, sad, untrusting, excited.. everything.
I mean Grace said "This is what you want." And yeah, I do want her to be normal and shit, but I don't know if its really gonna happen.
I'm so scared that shes gonna go psycho again. No I'm not gonna go living with her again all of the sudden, but I just don't want to start a friendship with her, or a mother/daughter relationship rather, well I don't want to do that again and then she just goes ape again.
It's really just crazy.
I just hope it works out =/