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[heymaggiemay]

I get a shiver in my bones just thinking
da da da da

I'm very much okay with the idea of a gray rainy day
sometimes they are just wholly nessecary

So i'm reading this book about shcizophrenia
the Divided Self and i really really like it
shcizophrenics are cool. maybe interesting is the word-
the author just makes the disorder sound so logical
so i sit there like "yea i totally get that too!"
and then i get scared
like when they have magazine lists of disease symptoms
and i say yes i have a bruise/irritability/headache/
nausea/aversion to processed cheese and realize that
without a doubt i am a prime canidate for cancer/sclerosis/the clap
and need to be on more vitamins.
pronto.
I also have confirmed cavities that need to be dealt with
(In my mouth)
But dentists and drills and the cotton stuff that you
choke on sound also unpleasant
so i'll probably just ignore them until i have three
teeth and start dating my cousin.

I get out May 11. I have ambivalent feelings.
and i've said too much.
but we have to say this

I.
Alas
I believe
I might have become
a great writer
but
the chairs
in the library
were too hard

Diane DiPrima
i like her.
and Lew Welch.
oooh.
but okay done now bye