Mar 14, 2009 20:08
I usually insist that I don't believe in god or a higher power, now and then I get the feeling of destiny/fate/karma drift through my head briefly and in a second it is gone again. Anyhow I do now and then find myself looking up and begging someone/something for a favor.
Today I did just that and got what I wanted. It was a such a small thing but I've never willed for something so much before. There is a a very good chance that it would have been the same outcome had I not asked I suppose, but it doesn't matter. I got what I wanted today.
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I've spent the last two days being terrified of having a panic attack(since discovering my meds cause anxiety) which can trigger one. Fuck that. Not wanting somethign makes you get somethign? That's just plain cruel. Well, I'm happy right now anyway.