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i'm not sure if i'm sick of being happy or i'm just confused, i don't think i know how i feel. i haven't had anything worthwhile to say in a long time. i found garden state so i'm watching it now, and it reminds me of wayne and how i watched it for the first time with him. that was an interesting time.
i'm home alone, which is very rare in an apartment with four girls. there's been a lot of talk about where to live next year. looks like i'm not going to italy, not yet. it sucks because i want to so bad, but i still don't think i'm ready. i feel like such a failure sometimes. but the thing is, i don't know where to live. i'm contemplating living alone, but i can't take the quiet and stillness. but i get so easily irritated. i've been staying at tedd's a lot lately just to get out, and it's refreshing. i'm so in love with him. it would be okay to live with him, but his work and my school are so far from each other.
i watched titanic earlier and man, that movie is sad.
school doesn't even seem to exist, and it's weird. normally i love school, but now i don't even know what classes i have on which days, when tests are, i don't even hang around campus much anymore. it's snowing a lot out, after a really warm week, and i hate the thought of walking to class tomorrow. i should appreciate it regardless. maybe it will be nice.
maybe i'm just not happy. i need more freedom.
i need to broaden my horizons. i've been doing too much of the same shit lately.
i like french, though.
i'm home alone, which is very rare in an apartment with four girls. there's been a lot of talk about where to live next year. looks like i'm not going to italy, not yet. it sucks because i want to so bad, but i still don't think i'm ready. i feel like such a failure sometimes. but the thing is, i don't know where to live. i'm contemplating living alone, but i can't take the quiet and stillness. but i get so easily irritated. i've been staying at tedd's a lot lately just to get out, and it's refreshing. i'm so in love with him. it would be okay to live with him, but his work and my school are so far from each other.
i watched titanic earlier and man, that movie is sad.
school doesn't even seem to exist, and it's weird. normally i love school, but now i don't even know what classes i have on which days, when tests are, i don't even hang around campus much anymore. it's snowing a lot out, after a really warm week, and i hate the thought of walking to class tomorrow. i should appreciate it regardless. maybe it will be nice.
maybe i'm just not happy. i need more freedom.
i need to broaden my horizons. i've been doing too much of the same shit lately.
i like french, though.