i haven't been on here in soooo long!
since i haven't written in awhile, i should give a quick update about my life so far. haha, boy, has it been crazy! i should be studying right now, but i really don't feel like it right now. =/
school: school is alright. trying to do better this quarter. retaking anatomy/physiology. the teacher isn't that much better than last year's teacher. ugh. but i'm trying my best to get a better grade. still chillin' with the same group & meeting a few new people this quarter. starting to question if nursing is for me. i'm more interested in nutrition or psychology. i know my cousin is taking psychology and likes it and i have a friend that's taking nutrition. ugh, i dunno. i just wanna talk to someone who's been in my position. cuz i promised my mom i'd try nursing for her. and so far, i don't like it. i applied for the program already at my school and i still have to apply at sac state and san jose state. but it's impossible to get in now because my GPA is lower than what the program is looking for. =( it's depressing really...kinda like high school all over again. feeling like my best isn't good enough. i dunno, whatever. i just know that i need to talk to my parents about it soon. i just don't know when.
work: work has been good. weird hours now tho. it's only cuz i can't really work fridays anymore so they schedule me more during the week which kinda sucks. so i opened up my sunday mornings, which also sucks cuz i'll be too tired to go to service those days i work. i'm gonna be with starbucks for 6 months on march 1. i'll have my review and possibly a raise. reviews aren't always good cuz you think you're doing a really great job, but then you get put down by the managers because they always have to pick at you about stupid small things. ehh, whatever. and my manager is leaving which means our assistant manager might get the store i'm working at now! =X not good. but it's ok cuz i need to transfer soon. somewhere down here by fremont instead of tracy.
living conditions: staying with my dad has been so kick back. it's nice to stay with someone that's not always on your back about things and constantly criticizing you or what not. i like staying with my dad more than my mom. i'm sad cuz he might be leaving to arizona soon and i won't have anywhere to stay for school. my sister, my brother and i were talking about taking my dad's apartment. but my sister doesn't really want to make that move cuz she said she's the only one that's sacrificing her job that she loves so much. i dunno, it sucks. i'm just trying not to think about it until the time comes. but i really do have to start thinking about where i'll be staying if i'm going to continue attending cal state hayward. i may need to find a better job if i really am going to try to live here with my brother or with a few friends. GAHH! i dunno.
boys: man oh man. well, let's just say....nothing. haha. i met someone that almost compromised my whole relationship with the person that understands me the most. i was stupid enough to let myself fall when i knew i wasn't supposed to. and in the end, i got let down and hurt, badly. and in return, i hurt the person that i love the most. it's gonna take some time for him to gain my trust again. it'll take time for the wounds to heal. but i'm willing to do whatever it takes to make things right between us. and he knows that. that was a crazy test, and i don't even think i really passed. haha. i dunno, we're always being tested and learning new things every day, right? right.
in general, i feel a bit stressed. kinda overwhelmed and just in desperate need of a vacation! i needa get away from everything! that'd be nice. haha. i actually went to san jose friday night and stayed with my cousin katrina & jr. i haven't seen them in 2 years and i used to always stay the night at their house over the summer. i missed them. hanging out with them and their friends bring back a lot of memories! it was nice to get away from everything and just catch up with those two. i love'em like they're my siblings. =) but i really would like a vacation. haha. i dunno. i guess that's all i have for now. maybe i'll write again sometime soon! hehe. we'll see. bye!
school: school is alright. trying to do better this quarter. retaking anatomy/physiology. the teacher isn't that much better than last year's teacher. ugh. but i'm trying my best to get a better grade. still chillin' with the same group & meeting a few new people this quarter. starting to question if nursing is for me. i'm more interested in nutrition or psychology. i know my cousin is taking psychology and likes it and i have a friend that's taking nutrition. ugh, i dunno. i just wanna talk to someone who's been in my position. cuz i promised my mom i'd try nursing for her. and so far, i don't like it. i applied for the program already at my school and i still have to apply at sac state and san jose state. but it's impossible to get in now because my GPA is lower than what the program is looking for. =( it's depressing really...kinda like high school all over again. feeling like my best isn't good enough. i dunno, whatever. i just know that i need to talk to my parents about it soon. i just don't know when.
work: work has been good. weird hours now tho. it's only cuz i can't really work fridays anymore so they schedule me more during the week which kinda sucks. so i opened up my sunday mornings, which also sucks cuz i'll be too tired to go to service those days i work. i'm gonna be with starbucks for 6 months on march 1. i'll have my review and possibly a raise. reviews aren't always good cuz you think you're doing a really great job, but then you get put down by the managers because they always have to pick at you about stupid small things. ehh, whatever. and my manager is leaving which means our assistant manager might get the store i'm working at now! =X not good. but it's ok cuz i need to transfer soon. somewhere down here by fremont instead of tracy.
living conditions: staying with my dad has been so kick back. it's nice to stay with someone that's not always on your back about things and constantly criticizing you or what not. i like staying with my dad more than my mom. i'm sad cuz he might be leaving to arizona soon and i won't have anywhere to stay for school. my sister, my brother and i were talking about taking my dad's apartment. but my sister doesn't really want to make that move cuz she said she's the only one that's sacrificing her job that she loves so much. i dunno, it sucks. i'm just trying not to think about it until the time comes. but i really do have to start thinking about where i'll be staying if i'm going to continue attending cal state hayward. i may need to find a better job if i really am going to try to live here with my brother or with a few friends. GAHH! i dunno.
boys: man oh man. well, let's just say....nothing. haha. i met someone that almost compromised my whole relationship with the person that understands me the most. i was stupid enough to let myself fall when i knew i wasn't supposed to. and in the end, i got let down and hurt, badly. and in return, i hurt the person that i love the most. it's gonna take some time for him to gain my trust again. it'll take time for the wounds to heal. but i'm willing to do whatever it takes to make things right between us. and he knows that. that was a crazy test, and i don't even think i really passed. haha. i dunno, we're always being tested and learning new things every day, right? right.
in general, i feel a bit stressed. kinda overwhelmed and just in desperate need of a vacation! i needa get away from everything! that'd be nice. haha. i actually went to san jose friday night and stayed with my cousin katrina & jr. i haven't seen them in 2 years and i used to always stay the night at their house over the summer. i missed them. hanging out with them and their friends bring back a lot of memories! it was nice to get away from everything and just catch up with those two. i love'em like they're my siblings. =) but i really would like a vacation. haha. i dunno. i guess that's all i have for now. maybe i'll write again sometime soon! hehe. we'll see. bye!