i never do this; i didnt mean it

[heyitsemily]

it is as if i never had that year
the year where i questioned who i was
Was i in denial? or
was
this the real
me

i remember her.
She was fun, pretty, popular
well-
like
d

She smiled and meant it
She swore
people laughed
She complimented
all
but
mostly didnt mean it
maybe

independent-people described
part of the hilarious pair
we always put on shows
even when
you
were not watching.

i miss her; my partner