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I find it funny that i hardly ever update my journal, yet the past entries are all about the same person. This entry is about him too. I still am head over heals for him. I still don't have him back. I still get hurt by him daily. But he is also the only thing that can make me happy.
I have lost interest in drugs. Alcohol is a destroyer. Pot is useless unless i really want to go to sleep. And all other drugs just do not seem to effect me how i would like them to. I am always let down... Even by drugs.
Mine and my mother's relationship has been slipping. I still love her to death, but she gets angry that she gets no help around the house. I brought her home some popcorn shrimp the other night, went upstairs and took a shower, and randomly got very sick. I could hardly breathe and i had shooting pains throughout my lower stomach. She told me to go fuck myself and tell Kyle about it. So i did. And like always... he was the only one that was there for me...
I do not really waste my time on useless friends anymore. They never get me anywhere anyway. We always just end up fighting and not talking... or we randomly distance ourselves.
If I am not at work I am at school. If i am not at school or work I'm at Kyle's house. That is my life. Boring, yet satisfying... for now.
I have lost interest in drugs. Alcohol is a destroyer. Pot is useless unless i really want to go to sleep. And all other drugs just do not seem to effect me how i would like them to. I am always let down... Even by drugs.
Mine and my mother's relationship has been slipping. I still love her to death, but she gets angry that she gets no help around the house. I brought her home some popcorn shrimp the other night, went upstairs and took a shower, and randomly got very sick. I could hardly breathe and i had shooting pains throughout my lower stomach. She told me to go fuck myself and tell Kyle about it. So i did. And like always... he was the only one that was there for me...
I do not really waste my time on useless friends anymore. They never get me anywhere anyway. We always just end up fighting and not talking... or we randomly distance ourselves.
If I am not at work I am at school. If i am not at school or work I'm at Kyle's house. That is my life. Boring, yet satisfying... for now.