God needed another angel.... :(
6:35am My mom walks into my room, calmly said "amber, we need to talk."
6:36am My mom says "Honey, Tori passed away on Friday."
6:37am.....
6:38am.....
6:39am.....
6:40am me "what the hell are you talking about? your kidding me.."
6:41am ......the bawling begins.
I have cried my eyes out for the past....like 15 hours.
One of my best friends died friday morning.
She had a seizure and asphyxiated....
She was only 20 years old...
She has a 3 year old little boy...
My heart is broken.
The hits just keep coming.
I was finally learning how to live with out my dad...
& Now I have to learn how to live without one of my best friends.
im not happy with life right now.
saying good-bye to one of the most amazing young woman i know tomorrow.
life will suck then too.
Tor , I've been sitting here, all day....trying to think of the words to say. trying to think of the right thing to say. you always used to tell me that i over think things, to just say the first thing that comes to my mind even if it meant cursing someone out. [always a favorite past-time of ours? baa] God...Nothing even is coming to mind Tor...Except how much i love you and how much....i'm going to fucking miss you. Ill miss all the times we had together. all the memories we made. all the secrets we shared. ill miss hanging out at your house during the summer watching Maury...with the sound paused making up our own words. ill miss just driving around, yelling out the window at someone, just because its fun, ill miss all the times we would just turn the stereo up and sing [badly too might i add ] at the top of our lungs.You always had a way of making me, or anybody smile, when things seemed so grim. you always had a way of cheering someone up, when things were so down. You were right by my side when i lost my dad, and i wish i couldve shown you how much i truly appreciated it. Ill cherish the moments I got to spend with you ,and with B. My heart is breaking for that little boy for he wont really get to know his wonderful mama. But know this, ill tell him about you. Ill tell him how wonderful you were, and how you loved him more than anything. and that he was your "Man-Man". Ill tell him how he lit up your life, and how you just glowed talking about him, from the day you knew you were having him. I wish you could see how you've put your mark on this world. I wish you could see the stamp you have left on all of our lives, and how we were blessed for being able to know you, for your life here. But your journey has just begun I would suppose. God needed another angel, & he chose you.Darling, we'll miss you. ill miss you more than anything. Keep us all safe angel, I love you ♥ p.s.hang out with my dad :) & laugh at all the stupid shit people do. i know you'll get a kick out of it love...god I miss you, it just makes no sense.. :(
6:36am My mom says "Honey, Tori passed away on Friday."
6:37am.....
6:38am.....
6:39am.....
6:40am me "what the hell are you talking about? your kidding me.."
6:41am ......the bawling begins.
I have cried my eyes out for the past....like 15 hours.
One of my best friends died friday morning.
She had a seizure and asphyxiated....
She was only 20 years old...
She has a 3 year old little boy...
My heart is broken.
The hits just keep coming.
I was finally learning how to live with out my dad...
& Now I have to learn how to live without one of my best friends.
im not happy with life right now.
saying good-bye to one of the most amazing young woman i know tomorrow.
life will suck then too.
Tor , I've been sitting here, all day....trying to think of the words to say. trying to think of the right thing to say. you always used to tell me that i over think things, to just say the first thing that comes to my mind even if it meant cursing someone out. [always a favorite past-time of ours? baa] God...Nothing even is coming to mind Tor...Except how much i love you and how much....i'm going to fucking miss you. Ill miss all the times we had together. all the memories we made. all the secrets we shared. ill miss hanging out at your house during the summer watching Maury...with the sound paused making up our own words. ill miss just driving around, yelling out the window at someone, just because its fun, ill miss all the times we would just turn the stereo up and sing [badly too might i add ] at the top of our lungs.You always had a way of making me, or anybody smile, when things seemed so grim. you always had a way of cheering someone up, when things were so down. You were right by my side when i lost my dad, and i wish i couldve shown you how much i truly appreciated it. Ill cherish the moments I got to spend with you ,and with B. My heart is breaking for that little boy for he wont really get to know his wonderful mama. But know this, ill tell him about you. Ill tell him how wonderful you were, and how you loved him more than anything. and that he was your "Man-Man". Ill tell him how he lit up your life, and how you just glowed talking about him, from the day you knew you were having him. I wish you could see how you've put your mark on this world. I wish you could see the stamp you have left on all of our lives, and how we were blessed for being able to know you, for your life here. But your journey has just begun I would suppose. God needed another angel, & he chose you.Darling, we'll miss you. ill miss you more than anything. Keep us all safe angel, I love you ♥ p.s.hang out with my dad :) & laugh at all the stupid shit people do. i know you'll get a kick out of it love...god I miss you, it just makes no sense.. :(