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All my life I've been a victim of the "there's always tomorrow" motto.
Saying this to myself would be an alternative to feeling guilty, depressed, upset or just sick of it all.
I was throwing in a high note to end my melancholy symphony, giving a possibility for an encore..
I can quote myself as to telling people "Things just aren't going very well right now"
but fuck, things were never good/bad, bad/good back and forth like a lightswitch, everything was always in the hole.
maybe this is my own weight, or maybe it's from that look in my mother's eyes, or the ridiculous silence from unanswered questions.
There are so many demons pulling me down right now that I'm too sick of it to fight them off.
15 years of resistance is wearing thin. I'm just waiting for the blow up.
Saying this to myself would be an alternative to feeling guilty, depressed, upset or just sick of it all.
I was throwing in a high note to end my melancholy symphony, giving a possibility for an encore..
I can quote myself as to telling people "Things just aren't going very well right now"
but fuck, things were never good/bad, bad/good back and forth like a lightswitch, everything was always in the hole.
maybe this is my own weight, or maybe it's from that look in my mother's eyes, or the ridiculous silence from unanswered questions.
There are so many demons pulling me down right now that I'm too sick of it to fight them off.
15 years of resistance is wearing thin. I'm just waiting for the blow up.