I don't want to be a sheep.
Life is difficult, isn't it? Everyone's lives seem to have overarching themes, but we spend so much time in actions that have nothing to do with those themes. Like going to work and doing menial tasks, or playing video games and watching movies and such things. What do they have to do with anything? Nothing.
On second thought, that may not be entirely true. I apologize for saying something that I don't believe to be true. But what I really had on my mind when I started writing is this: sometimes, some of our greatest struggles- the patterns of thoughts and actions and events that consistently disturb our peace- are things that are not true of us at all. Particularly the thoughts. Allow me to offer an example. I have tendency to, among other things, feel as though I'm not a part of whatever it is I'm supposed to be a part of. I remember discussing with James how I sometimes didn't feel like I was really a part of the group of interns. At the same time, him and Jonny, among others, had remarked how, even though I came into the program late, I seemed to them just as much a part of the group as everyone else.
So be honest in your self-asessments, but keep that in mind. You might be right about yourself, but it might just be lies and insecurity rearing their head at you. If you always feel anonymous and unimportant then maybe, just maybe, it's because there are big things on the horizon for you. And maybe someone doesn't want you to get there. But you will, I have faith. Hang in there.
On second thought, that may not be entirely true. I apologize for saying something that I don't believe to be true. But what I really had on my mind when I started writing is this: sometimes, some of our greatest struggles- the patterns of thoughts and actions and events that consistently disturb our peace- are things that are not true of us at all. Particularly the thoughts. Allow me to offer an example. I have tendency to, among other things, feel as though I'm not a part of whatever it is I'm supposed to be a part of. I remember discussing with James how I sometimes didn't feel like I was really a part of the group of interns. At the same time, him and Jonny, among others, had remarked how, even though I came into the program late, I seemed to them just as much a part of the group as everyone else.
So be honest in your self-asessments, but keep that in mind. You might be right about yourself, but it might just be lies and insecurity rearing their head at you. If you always feel anonymous and unimportant then maybe, just maybe, it's because there are big things on the horizon for you. And maybe someone doesn't want you to get there. But you will, I have faith. Hang in there.