Oh, I believe in intuition, but I left it in the kitchen.
Is it just me or is everybody upset right now?
It's probably just me.
But this always happens,
I get off work and lurk around the house until three in the morning
Until I'm struck by some paralyzing fear that I'm incredibly alone.
And I am.
Because it's three in the morning and I really should just go to sleep.
Things that have been running across my mind all night (BABY):
a) While sitting in front of the Taco Shop,
I remember Shela saying that she worked at Casa de los Ninos.
And I told her that I spent three months of my life there.
Then she turned, gave me this look and said,
"Wow, really? I always wondered how the kids there turned out."
I never felt so understood by someone so quickly.
b) My creative energy is fueled by my own sadness and unsatisfaction.
My best works come from when I'm really upset.
As far as figuring out what I'm doing with my life,
I've been leaning towards something of the art persuasion,
But the only way I could produce something worthwhile is if I'm distressed or unhappy.
And I'm still not sure if that's a good thing at all.
c) I'm so jealous of people that have someone to come back to.
I don't know,
It's those "can't leave anytime you try" situations.
I mean, they're probably awful once you're caught in one,
But I would do nothing but marvel as to why someone would come back to me.
It sounds magnificent.
d) I miss Emma and Celia.
A lot.
e) I'm very confused as to why Andy of Great Job decided to randomly be my friend.
Does he not realize that I sat in his car for four hours and went to a show with him as he did not embrace my existence?
I mean, really.
Haha
But I'm in no position to turn down a friend.
I don't think anyone ever really is.
f) Things at home aren't going very well right now.
I don't want to get into it.
What I really want right now is to get out.
I'm tired of paying all the bills.
Yes, it sounds selfish
But I'm so beat.
g) My dad was playing his banjo for me when he visited a couple days ago.
I asked him if he still knew this song that he used to play for me when I was a kid
About a frog who went courting.
He didn't remember it.
It's probably just me.
But this always happens,
I get off work and lurk around the house until three in the morning
Until I'm struck by some paralyzing fear that I'm incredibly alone.
And I am.
Because it's three in the morning and I really should just go to sleep.
Things that have been running across my mind all night (BABY):
a) While sitting in front of the Taco Shop,
I remember Shela saying that she worked at Casa de los Ninos.
And I told her that I spent three months of my life there.
Then she turned, gave me this look and said,
"Wow, really? I always wondered how the kids there turned out."
I never felt so understood by someone so quickly.
b) My creative energy is fueled by my own sadness and unsatisfaction.
My best works come from when I'm really upset.
As far as figuring out what I'm doing with my life,
I've been leaning towards something of the art persuasion,
But the only way I could produce something worthwhile is if I'm distressed or unhappy.
And I'm still not sure if that's a good thing at all.
c) I'm so jealous of people that have someone to come back to.
I don't know,
It's those "can't leave anytime you try" situations.
I mean, they're probably awful once you're caught in one,
But I would do nothing but marvel as to why someone would come back to me.
It sounds magnificent.
d) I miss Emma and Celia.
A lot.
e) I'm very confused as to why Andy of Great Job decided to randomly be my friend.
Does he not realize that I sat in his car for four hours and went to a show with him as he did not embrace my existence?
I mean, really.
Haha
But I'm in no position to turn down a friend.
I don't think anyone ever really is.
f) Things at home aren't going very well right now.
I don't want to get into it.
What I really want right now is to get out.
I'm tired of paying all the bills.
Yes, it sounds selfish
But I'm so beat.
g) My dad was playing his banjo for me when he visited a couple days ago.
I asked him if he still knew this song that he used to play for me when I was a kid
About a frog who went courting.
He didn't remember it.