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There are few times that I can remember actually being scared. Walking late at night in a sketchy area, or even seeing a guy with a gun in Tallahassee never actually scared me. I made sure to get out of there, but I always had a sense of security. It's that feeling in your gut that you know that everything is going be alright because everything always ends up alright. But it won't always be that way. I saw someone take on the whole persona of selfishness from alcohol and I was pretty scared. It's not that selfishness is in itself that is a problem, but everything that goes along with it. The tantrum, the anger, the inhibition, and the "I will do whatever to get what I want" was pretty darn scary. I would be damned before I showed that I was even slightly nervous. But I wouldn't have been shocked if I had been punched or kicked or more that night. Luckily, the anger was taken out on an alarm clock, and I packed everything up and got out of there ASAP. There are so many situations that I can't believe I get into. But when it comes down to it, everyone is okay and no harm was done. I just wish that it was easier for me to forgive people, and just let it go.
Cancun was so amazing. Just amazing. I wish I could have stayed longer.
Cancun was so amazing. Just amazing. I wish I could have stayed longer.