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When I went to college I always thought that everything big would just happen. I would automatically know what I wanted for my future, or that I would just meet a group of friends that would be like my family, or that I would just find out everything I enjoy. While some of this is true, I've started to notice all the flaws in my thinking, or what I didn't think about. I'm finally deciding that I need to take control of my life and find out what I want and not what others want for me. I've been comfortable with everything, never striving or desiring what's better. I can't really say that I've done much of what I have wanted to do in college. I've taken electives that would knock things off the list, or that would look good when I apply to graduate school. I was active in a church group my freshmen year because that is what my parents had encouraged me to do. I'm going into the medical field because it's prestigious, pays well, and it is what familiar to me. I guess I have been looking over my past decisions and my reasons for doing what I have done. I guess it's good that I'm trying to decide what I really want finally.
My emotions have been somewhat of a roller coaster ride lately. I've been trying to keep myself busy which I've been doing a fairly good job of. Or well, school has if anything. I've been having study groups a lot. But I've also taken time to hang out with people I haven't in awhile, or get in touch with friends from back home. It feels really good catching up with people. There are a few reasons for why I've been like this, but I should snap out of it in a few days. Or well, that's what I expect. Besides, it's not like it lasted that long.
My emotions have been somewhat of a roller coaster ride lately. I've been trying to keep myself busy which I've been doing a fairly good job of. Or well, school has if anything. I've been having study groups a lot. But I've also taken time to hang out with people I haven't in awhile, or get in touch with friends from back home. It feels really good catching up with people. There are a few reasons for why I've been like this, but I should snap out of it in a few days. Or well, that's what I expect. Besides, it's not like it lasted that long.