Apr 11, 2006 13:30
Nothing makes sense. We are taught completely different things than what is expected of us in the "real world". I really hate everything sometimes.
I want something new and fun and exciting.
I want to go on an adventure.
I want so much more than my boring life with fucking doctors telling me left and right what's wrong with me. Fuck everything. I am so sick of fucking wrong diagnoses and a million different medications. Smoke pot, listen to music and have good conversations. The end.
I don't think I am going to seek professional help anymore. I tried. It didn't work. I'm done. I will deal with things my own way.
And no offense to anyone but I think most psychologists are full of complete bullshit. Nobody really understands people by talking to them like once a fucking week. FUCK that. You can't diagnose somebody by reading about it in a text book and giving them an evaluation where like symptoms are the same of like 5 different disorders.
I am so frustrated. I should have been relieved when I was allowed back to school but I wasn't. I almost felt as though I was going to cry and I had such a bad feeling in my stomach. The whole entire morning and the past few days I wasn't really worried at all. Sure, I was pissed all my work would have gone down the drain but like honestly, I did not care. I was kind of excited to have to deal with something new and figure out a new plan because my life now is not working.
I just don't know.