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so...I just signed on to AIM for the first time in over a year and found that Melissa's screenname is still on there. Just looking at it made me feel horrible but I don't want to take it off because it seems more final that way. I know that I haven't cried or anything but I can't let go of that screenname on there b/c it reminds me of when we used to talk online and I don't want to forget the memories I have. Plus the anniversary (better word needed) is coming up this month and that's going to be horrible again. I wish this had never happened. I wish she was still here. I just want us to be happy again.