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[hey_there_kayla]

i wrote eight paragraphs about you late last night.
and it made me cry how honest it was.
my mind has been a chaotic mess the past week.
and i have been thinking things, but none of it ever
hit me until last night.
and when i finally saw everything i was feeling typed out...
it scared me.
it scared me so much i cried.
i cried harder than i have in a long time.
and that scared me too.
i didnt know how upset this is making me till last night.

i am not sure if this is love.
or if im just upset because i feel
like i am losing you as a friend.

i want you to read this. but i know you won't.