mornings & bedtimes are the worst time of my day.
& the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?
I'm not sure if its a good or bad thing that I emo-ed everything over again last night, but I know it was a good thing my girlfriends were there. Its a beautiful, painful, shameful feeling when someone else is going thru the exact same thing as you are. Its lovely because then, they can really listen as they know just what you need to hear, to know, to talk about. Funny how in such a short span of time, something we thought would last forever ends just like that. Just like, someone blew out the candle, or someone dropped a new camera. Try as we might to sanitize ourselves of all recollecting thoughts, but I think I'll just let myself wear off it slowly & effectively. I didn't think I'd take so long. I've never taken so long for anyone before. We talked about doing whatever it takes, having silly thoughts that will be immature 2 years from now. We learn, but sometimes, we don't deserve to learn it so hard. I don't know if it works but I cry over every specific memory, so after that its sorta out of my system, at least away from the brink of generating tears since thats already done. Oh, I just wish we could go back to the start. Tell me your secrets, ask me your questions like a stranger ): I miss you