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I don't know how to explain this to anyone. I don't know how I'll explain this to everyone. There is nothing left to lose. I thought I'd take comfort in knowing there's nothing else that can be taken from me, but you know what? I don't feel better. I still want the same thing I wanted this morning when I'd realized I'd woken up.
Gino, you do need to be on watch.
If I get what I want, thank your mom for me, okay? No, you shouldn't have involved her, but she's supposed to be an adult, and should've known better. But you know, she has some freudian fantasy about you. Any girl that comes along will be her enemy. She'll threaten to kill you eventually over any girl. Your mother thinks you look just like the person she's most attracted to in the world, who is far, far too young for her to be any more than joking about.
But yeah. Thank her. Explain to her that thanks to her inability to behave as an adult with dignity, I felt like this, and I decided to make it better.
I knew I was doomed from the moment I met her. No one feels welcomed by her because she has sexual feelings toward her son, whether or not they're realized. And I could tell that from the moment I met her. I am not stupid. I can read people. I knew what was going on in that situation and in the most recent one.
I told you I'd never try to get between the two of you. And I won't. You won't read this. You have no way of finding this and linking it back to me. But if you ever asked my honest opinion, I'd tell you to get as far away from your mother as soon as possible. Speak to her only enough to keep her sated. She will never let go of some fucked up fantasy. She will ruin every relationship you will ever have. Was it you, or her who influenced the downfall of your past relationships? Has she been a little bird chirping in your ear, flying into the house when you try to close the window to get it to shut up?
Does it freak you out that I can tell all this stuff, and that I've seen it since when I first met your family? Does it freak you out that we're so similar?
Can't I just have something to hope for?
Gino, you do need to be on watch.
If I get what I want, thank your mom for me, okay? No, you shouldn't have involved her, but she's supposed to be an adult, and should've known better. But you know, she has some freudian fantasy about you. Any girl that comes along will be her enemy. She'll threaten to kill you eventually over any girl. Your mother thinks you look just like the person she's most attracted to in the world, who is far, far too young for her to be any more than joking about.
But yeah. Thank her. Explain to her that thanks to her inability to behave as an adult with dignity, I felt like this, and I decided to make it better.
I knew I was doomed from the moment I met her. No one feels welcomed by her because she has sexual feelings toward her son, whether or not they're realized. And I could tell that from the moment I met her. I am not stupid. I can read people. I knew what was going on in that situation and in the most recent one.
I told you I'd never try to get between the two of you. And I won't. You won't read this. You have no way of finding this and linking it back to me. But if you ever asked my honest opinion, I'd tell you to get as far away from your mother as soon as possible. Speak to her only enough to keep her sated. She will never let go of some fucked up fantasy. She will ruin every relationship you will ever have. Was it you, or her who influenced the downfall of your past relationships? Has she been a little bird chirping in your ear, flying into the house when you try to close the window to get it to shut up?
Does it freak you out that I can tell all this stuff, and that I've seen it since when I first met your family? Does it freak you out that we're so similar?
Can't I just have something to hope for?