"wHeN tHeRe'S nO oNe To TaLk To"
ok. this is ridiculous. since its been more than two months and i dont even know where to start. so here goes...
school ended way too fast. and i was way too busy. the fccla party...made my cry. bawl. i will never forget me, diana, and murphy, standing in front of everyone, looking crazy, trying to sum up the past four years that we had spent together. senior awards was big too. i was too excited to get outstanding senior. it really meant a lot to me after all the years i put into it...and i was so proud of everyone for all their awards...and scholarships...
here's what else i can remember...senior breakfast...i can't believe that happened so fast. but it was fun watching everyone winning their awards, and weird because it was my friends, my class winning the awards...kels' crazy birthday weekend. yay 80s prom. it was sooo much fun and i will never forget a minute of it. getting ready, listening to music, driving through weed street, wannaget high, dickie talking shit about everyone, and dancing on stage with the girls...yearbook and battle of the bands: 4&G should have won...the last day of school. i cried. mrs. kelsay made me cry. i actually have no idea why though...so me and amy walked to math in tears, and then everyone started crying in math. there were so many of my friends in that class too so it was a good class to end on...andy and nick's birthday surprise at the flyers game that night..."you guys are so sneaky..." then finals week...mr. cibulka's speech made me cry...it was an emotional week...but some dq and an ss helped...and breakfast with kels and michael on my first summer morning...
prom was too much fun. finished my dress earlier that week and made a purse the day before. me and nick took pics at my house and then we all met at the village...it all worked out but weird bugs kept flying in my dress it was kinda gross. but otherwise it was amazing. it was so much fun at the banquet. they had sherbert. we took pics. and i had so much fun dancing and watching the boys dancing...they always make me laugh...it went too fast though...so i was glad we still had time on the boat...everyone started to get tired and quiet...but i still had fun...all the way to the last dance...which i remember was hilarious. "let's get it on." after that i went home to change and then met back with everyone at tim's house in an attempt to sleep. we tried planning out a day...but it was rainy and cold...and we fought at lot...but we ended up going to ed debevics and chilling at amys and fighting more and then going to pawels...we spent saturday at devins...then me, nina, tim, kels, dean, matt, joey, sarah, and steph all went to the drive in. the movies sucked but it was so much fun.
it still hasnt sunk in that i graduated. i dont understand how that happened. i thought i would feel different or something. the cap and gown. the tassle. the speeches. the song. again...i was too emotional. janel and diana made me cry. kels made me cry. seeing my mom hugging diana made me cry that really ugly cry when you can't breathe. but we took all the pics. went out to dinner...and spent the night at johns.
so i can't remember everything i've done this summer because i haven't updated. but its been a lot. there's been a grad party every saturday...andy, tim, steph, me, matt, nina hertz, steve, nina duf, amy. sunmist, movie awards and fun at 1 pm with di and nell. xmen with joey and puj. orientation with melissa, justine, concetta/maria, and kelly who we met there. it was a lot of fun...the ghost tour was too cool. registering freaked me out. outlaws games on fridays. hanging out at concetta's afterwards. random shopping with the boys. eating way too much...i think i go out to eat everyday. flurries and talking with nina and andy. munger road. ss every weekend. hanging out at the park. talks with john in my driveway. sleepovers at philadelphias. entourage game with phil, matt, and mike. fest at crystal lake. scandalous fireworks. 4th in the expedition. ggd tickets. pirates premiere at midnight. omg jack sparrow. nina and joe with their aztec gold...made my day. driving randomly on the expressway. lotto tickets. kels' softball games. renting movies with john and steph. talking with john and con. talking more with john...a lot of talking this summer. dq roadtrip with nina...i've never laughed so hard. we were so random and on a roadtrip mission. hanging out with the boys at friars cove. glory road...courtneys house. girls night out at og and cruel intentions. and today...subway, johns, outlaws, 711 day, wesley.
and for now...thats what i can remember. i'm gonna try and be more consistent from now on.
I wonder is there anything
I'm going to miss
I wonder how it's going to be
When you don't know me
How's it going to be
When you're sure I'm not there
How's it going to be
When there's no one there to talk to
Between you and me
Cause I don't care
How's it going to be, How's it going to be
Where we used to laugh
There's a shouting match...
When it was always about to hit me
I wonder how's it going to be
When it goes down
How's it going to be
When you're not around
How's it going to be
When you found out there was nothing
Between you and me
Cause I don't care
How's it going to be
And how's it going to be
When you don't know me anymore.
school ended way too fast. and i was way too busy. the fccla party...made my cry. bawl. i will never forget me, diana, and murphy, standing in front of everyone, looking crazy, trying to sum up the past four years that we had spent together. senior awards was big too. i was too excited to get outstanding senior. it really meant a lot to me after all the years i put into it...and i was so proud of everyone for all their awards...and scholarships...
here's what else i can remember...senior breakfast...i can't believe that happened so fast. but it was fun watching everyone winning their awards, and weird because it was my friends, my class winning the awards...kels' crazy birthday weekend. yay 80s prom. it was sooo much fun and i will never forget a minute of it. getting ready, listening to music, driving through weed street, wannaget high, dickie talking shit about everyone, and dancing on stage with the girls...yearbook and battle of the bands: 4&G should have won...the last day of school. i cried. mrs. kelsay made me cry. i actually have no idea why though...so me and amy walked to math in tears, and then everyone started crying in math. there were so many of my friends in that class too so it was a good class to end on...andy and nick's birthday surprise at the flyers game that night..."you guys are so sneaky..." then finals week...mr. cibulka's speech made me cry...it was an emotional week...but some dq and an ss helped...and breakfast with kels and michael on my first summer morning...
prom was too much fun. finished my dress earlier that week and made a purse the day before. me and nick took pics at my house and then we all met at the village...it all worked out but weird bugs kept flying in my dress it was kinda gross. but otherwise it was amazing. it was so much fun at the banquet. they had sherbert. we took pics. and i had so much fun dancing and watching the boys dancing...they always make me laugh...it went too fast though...so i was glad we still had time on the boat...everyone started to get tired and quiet...but i still had fun...all the way to the last dance...which i remember was hilarious. "let's get it on." after that i went home to change and then met back with everyone at tim's house in an attempt to sleep. we tried planning out a day...but it was rainy and cold...and we fought at lot...but we ended up going to ed debevics and chilling at amys and fighting more and then going to pawels...we spent saturday at devins...then me, nina, tim, kels, dean, matt, joey, sarah, and steph all went to the drive in. the movies sucked but it was so much fun.
it still hasnt sunk in that i graduated. i dont understand how that happened. i thought i would feel different or something. the cap and gown. the tassle. the speeches. the song. again...i was too emotional. janel and diana made me cry. kels made me cry. seeing my mom hugging diana made me cry that really ugly cry when you can't breathe. but we took all the pics. went out to dinner...and spent the night at johns.
so i can't remember everything i've done this summer because i haven't updated. but its been a lot. there's been a grad party every saturday...andy, tim, steph, me, matt, nina hertz, steve, nina duf, amy. sunmist, movie awards and fun at 1 pm with di and nell. xmen with joey and puj. orientation with melissa, justine, concetta/maria, and kelly who we met there. it was a lot of fun...the ghost tour was too cool. registering freaked me out. outlaws games on fridays. hanging out at concetta's afterwards. random shopping with the boys. eating way too much...i think i go out to eat everyday. flurries and talking with nina and andy. munger road. ss every weekend. hanging out at the park. talks with john in my driveway. sleepovers at philadelphias. entourage game with phil, matt, and mike. fest at crystal lake. scandalous fireworks. 4th in the expedition. ggd tickets. pirates premiere at midnight. omg jack sparrow. nina and joe with their aztec gold...made my day. driving randomly on the expressway. lotto tickets. kels' softball games. renting movies with john and steph. talking with john and con. talking more with john...a lot of talking this summer. dq roadtrip with nina...i've never laughed so hard. we were so random and on a roadtrip mission. hanging out with the boys at friars cove. glory road...courtneys house. girls night out at og and cruel intentions. and today...subway, johns, outlaws, 711 day, wesley.
and for now...thats what i can remember. i'm gonna try and be more consistent from now on.
I wonder is there anything
I'm going to miss
I wonder how it's going to be
When you don't know me
How's it going to be
When you're sure I'm not there
How's it going to be
When there's no one there to talk to
Between you and me
Cause I don't care
How's it going to be, How's it going to be
Where we used to laugh
There's a shouting match...
When it was always about to hit me
I wonder how's it going to be
When it goes down
How's it going to be
When you're not around
How's it going to be
When you found out there was nothing
Between you and me
Cause I don't care
How's it going to be
And how's it going to be
When you don't know me anymore.