"yOu'Re NoT yOu BuT i'M sTiLL mE"
work. for a long time. then. finally. 4&G. my boys. thats what i call them. and can't forget my girl kels. they were amazing and too cute. and i knew the words. it was a moment there.
anarchy. then home run turned into portillos. my handshakes with scott. my rocky: aaww i miss that kid. then back to the school of rock. for standing around and bullshit. ugh the bullshit. and the meanness. wasn't very much appreciated, since i know it wasn't joking. if it was, then whatever. but once it gets personal, not so funny anymore. but whatever, that's my life story lately. bullshit.
here are my angry shout-outs even though no one will really read this.
1- don't act dumb. don't be paranoid. i don't know what you expect me to do. but don't act like you're too cool now. you suck for that. and now im not even there.
2- i wish you knew what i know. and you knew why my perspective changed. i would have still been gone for you. i sometimes think i still could be. and then i laugh. because you act like nothing.
3- explain to me what i did wrong. because i don't get it. and this is dumb. its a waste of time. its a waste of life. and i don't want to waste away my year through this.
4- i don't know what happened and it makes me sad. you're not there always anymore. you're there, but if you are, you act like i'm not. and it really sucks because i miss the way it was.
why do i get so upset over these moments? i could list some more shout-outs, but i'm trying not to be that angry/sad. i thought i could make it through all this bull. but something happened. everything that was hurting me is now ten times worse. and i can't deal. so here's my boys who have been keeping me company while i wrote this.
For no apparent reason You underwent a change You pulled away from me My love for you remained
My memory Doesn’t serve correct All I have are words To try and keep you in check
Not to say I told you so You built me up and let me go Now put me on your pedestal Show me how high you are When you like to say I’m wrong I like you once but that one’s gone You’re the least important piece I need You’re not you, but I’m still me