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Today is my breaking point
I've been trying to stay positive but I can't ignore everything that I am unhappy with in my life. From school to my boyfriend, family life and social not to mention work, it's all been steadily rolling down hill and now it seems to be flying down at a dangerous pace.
Boyfriend
I never have any money because every time I turn around I'm putting 30$ into my car for gas. I drive myself and Ryan every where and for the record I HATE driving. He can never do anything because he pisses away his money on DDR and magic cards. He holds a mall job and lives on his own. He has no car, no lisence, and smokes a lot. He promises to get a new job but he never does. He nags me when I want to do something but when he goes to magic I come and keep him company.I feel like I can't break up with him because i will lose all of the good friends I have made and I will be alone.
Job
I get no hours, I have been there a years with the hopes that I will move up to become key holder but have been offered no such promotions despite the fact I have been employee of the month 4 times this year and district employee of the moth once. I have done a fashion report that was well recieved by the president of the company and was even published in the newsletter that eaches all hot topics through the US. I do not make enough money to do any of the things I would like to. I have applied at five places in the past month and no one has called me back.
Family
my sister has crashed both her car and my mothers in the past month. I have always strongly felt that my mother favors my sister over me due to the fact that she looks like my mother wants her to. My sister fails school, skips class and has a major attitude problem yet my parents never punish her and she now gets to use my car as a result and yet again I'm punished for her problems.
school
school is not challenging enough I feel like I'm babied at LCC, I'm bored and unchallenged, I take classes that I am uniterested in and I despise the enviromet. I want to go to art school and be challeneged and work hard and feel accomplished but I cannot afford this and will more than like ly be in debt if I attempt to go.
I don't know what to do, I'm stressed angry and fed up I hate getting up in the morning and it feels like there is a cloud above my head all of the time a cloud I am afraid I put there myself. I feel like all of this is my fault and no one will help me. I feel ignored and worst of all alone. I want everyone to be happy but I can't expect that unless I'm happy.
cassie
I've been trying to stay positive but I can't ignore everything that I am unhappy with in my life. From school to my boyfriend, family life and social not to mention work, it's all been steadily rolling down hill and now it seems to be flying down at a dangerous pace.
Boyfriend
I never have any money because every time I turn around I'm putting 30$ into my car for gas. I drive myself and Ryan every where and for the record I HATE driving. He can never do anything because he pisses away his money on DDR and magic cards. He holds a mall job and lives on his own. He has no car, no lisence, and smokes a lot. He promises to get a new job but he never does. He nags me when I want to do something but when he goes to magic I come and keep him company.I feel like I can't break up with him because i will lose all of the good friends I have made and I will be alone.
Job
I get no hours, I have been there a years with the hopes that I will move up to become key holder but have been offered no such promotions despite the fact I have been employee of the month 4 times this year and district employee of the moth once. I have done a fashion report that was well recieved by the president of the company and was even published in the newsletter that eaches all hot topics through the US. I do not make enough money to do any of the things I would like to. I have applied at five places in the past month and no one has called me back.
Family
my sister has crashed both her car and my mothers in the past month. I have always strongly felt that my mother favors my sister over me due to the fact that she looks like my mother wants her to. My sister fails school, skips class and has a major attitude problem yet my parents never punish her and she now gets to use my car as a result and yet again I'm punished for her problems.
school
school is not challenging enough I feel like I'm babied at LCC, I'm bored and unchallenged, I take classes that I am uniterested in and I despise the enviromet. I want to go to art school and be challeneged and work hard and feel accomplished but I cannot afford this and will more than like ly be in debt if I attempt to go.
I don't know what to do, I'm stressed angry and fed up I hate getting up in the morning and it feels like there is a cloud above my head all of the time a cloud I am afraid I put there myself. I feel like all of this is my fault and no one will help me. I feel ignored and worst of all alone. I want everyone to be happy but I can't expect that unless I'm happy.
cassie