Moody
Today i was like in standby the whole day...
lately i have so many emotional problems i am so unstable :C i hate that feeling...
Today i felt like crying the whole time during my basketball practice, i fell down i did a bad step and hurt my ankle ~ lost the ball like... 4 times? :C threw it so bad that I hurt others and myself... and everytime somebody touched me a little harder ... i felt so much pain.
I hate being a girl~~~ and i hate girls... i keep my word on saying that if I were I boy, I would be gay and proud!!... i have to stop this stupid emotional state... but everything makes me angry, even watching my mom makes me angry, not because i decided to. she stained my school trip coat. which everyone in my class have and instead of being creamy is pink... PINK i hate pink and she never said "i'm sorry" she even yelled at me saying that i was irrational and childish... she had all the fault putting her stupid red shirt in the washing machine with my precious coat ;n; so now she speaks rude to me as if i had all the fault ~ and i can't say anything to her because she is weak and will burst in anger ... only because i am younger i can't yell and put my rights on the table >__< i hate this emo-me !!!!! but i hope writing this will help a little, since i don't like telling people because i almost all the time disagree in the ways of solving problems... aff~~ i just want everything to get better soon...
i can't even concentrate on school like this~ if only I had just boy friends :C
putting that aside... VSarashi producer knows now about people all over the world is loving Arashi <3 i am so happy about that~ a certain someone commented and said he was from my country <3 sooo happy ~~~ :DDD
this is my only happiness (: pure and always available ♥
OOOK~~ GOTTA GO READ NOW~~ QUIJOTE IS WAITING FOR ME AND ALSO THE SHOWERRR~~ :3