When It Was Fun

[hey____deceiver]

I, too, remember when it used to be fun
Before false arms flailing
grasping for the wardrobe, knowing
one was left, you remember
but you were black out drunk
The night your friends told you about
where they took you swimming because, hey
they had seen you worse off

I, too, remember when it used to be fun
when I'd go shot for shot with the boys
ordering Dewar's, straight up
and they'd laugh, and I'd win
and wear it like a badge

Still do sometimes
if you can't stand what you see,
take your glasses off.

I, too, remember when it used to be fun
before the ugliness shined through
and I'd go to work, and I could tie my shoes
I was shaking from birth
but it's become more of a choice
I don't get any pills for it.
I no longer drink with the boys.

It used to be cute, and fascinating
but for now, I drink me under the table.
Now, the bottle turned gun.

I, too, remember when it used to be fun.