Lame
My life is completely pointless right now. Other than a few people who keep me going each day, and you know who you are, my life is just....that. Blah. Pointless. I'm bored. I need to get out of here. I hate my loathing in self apathy. Ya know, when I was in college, there was no time to loathe and feel shitty about yourself. The life was always moving, bumping, grooving....nothing ever slowed down, it was fast-paced. I'm 19 years old and I feel like i'm in God's waiting room with all the other DEPENDable shit-themselves old people. Ugh....so yet I still sit, and loathe. I want the perfect someone to come by and sweep ME off my feet......I want to rock out in front of a couple thousand seething roaring sweaty people.......I want to spin in a club......I want to go skydiving......I want to stand at the water's edge in Oahu...........I can't. At least not for awhile. Damn me.