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[hetzeld]

Well Another day gone and another day to come. I finished most of my homework tonight so tomorrow I prolly only have about an hours worth if I concentrate on it. I am glad that Jenny isnt giving up on me as a friend but I didnt really get a straight answer out of her why she is giving up on the one that she is. I didnt want things to be different with us but how can they not be different? I do like Jenny as a friend but I know that I could most definatly like her as more. It may never develope into anything more and most likely that is the case, but I just don't know what to do. I feel kind of awkward being around her alone knowing that I like her and yet knowing that I cant have her. It would be totally different if she wasnt dating one of my best friends, but that is the case and I cant say that I really like it but what am I going to do. Wait I know NOTHING. I can work on calling her and being a good friend. Kyle says that he doesnt really care if we hang out but I know he does, if he found out I was with her for an extended period of time when I was with her I would most likely get a phone call from him asking me what I was doing or her getting a phone call. I would feel as If I am sneaking around, behind his back even though that I am doing nothing wrong.

I don't understand it I don't know what to think
Life is a struggle in every way it seems
I cant even imagine what life tomorrow will bring
I live my life the best that I can, I try to make the right descisions, and be the person I know I can be, but in the end the person that gets hurt is me.
What can I do and what can I say, when everything around me becomes dull and grey. The one thing I've learned is nothing is set, its an amazing rollercoaster the older I am the more complicated it gets. From day to day and from night to night I wonder what will happen to me. I guess the only thing I can say is we'll see.

Goodnight All Have a good day tomorrow.

-Dan