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i didn't really think my conversation with anthony bothered me...
until about 10 shots later.
and i realize that it is really probably more true than i would like to believe.
i also realize how important it is for me to leave and have a fresh start.
i have spent 7 years of my life being put down by the same man,
always having one flaw or another pointed out to me.
he thought that it would make me want to be better, to change those things about myself.
but really, it just made me aware of the things that i really can't change.
i need a change of pace.
and i keep dwelling on this fact, and i'm sitting with my washington application essay trying to make it compelling and intellectual and persuasive and yet still me, and i can't make it that way.
i want to get out so bad, but i can't seem to come through in my writing. i have never been able to sell myself, and now is a time when it is so important to my well being to do so, and i still don't have the words.
they ask for a compelling reason for their university to accept you...is pulling a once really happy girl out of a very dark hole a good one?
because to me, i just sounds desperate.
until about 10 shots later.
and i realize that it is really probably more true than i would like to believe.
i also realize how important it is for me to leave and have a fresh start.
i have spent 7 years of my life being put down by the same man,
always having one flaw or another pointed out to me.
he thought that it would make me want to be better, to change those things about myself.
but really, it just made me aware of the things that i really can't change.
i need a change of pace.
and i keep dwelling on this fact, and i'm sitting with my washington application essay trying to make it compelling and intellectual and persuasive and yet still me, and i can't make it that way.
i want to get out so bad, but i can't seem to come through in my writing. i have never been able to sell myself, and now is a time when it is so important to my well being to do so, and i still don't have the words.
they ask for a compelling reason for their university to accept you...is pulling a once really happy girl out of a very dark hole a good one?
because to me, i just sounds desperate.