Crossroads?
Did I make a mistake? The biggest one of my life?
I've been skating a lot recently. It has made me realize (1) how much I miss doing it all the time, and (2) the extent to which my ability has eroded over the last few years.
Part of the reason for (2) is that I am now in law school, and it eats all my time. I am going to be a lawyer soon. The problem is that I will always be a punk rock skateboarder at heart. I didn't want to follow that path into the realm of pro-skating. However, should I have followed it into the skate industry further than I did? Should I have arranged my life so it always centered around what is at the core of my being? Is it too late to do that now? Do I really want to do that, anyway?
Some people can grow-up, move-on, and evolve their personal identity. Sure, I have "grown up," but until the day I die, when ever I use (or think of) the word "I," it will always be some cocky skater kid, listening to Husker Du, and resisting the "normal" world. I think I will be forever stuck in the identity I created for myself in high school. How lame is that?
You can take the kid of Brooklyn, but can't take the Brooklyn out of the kid. I have court tomorrow. I have to wear a suit. What the hell happened to me? Last night I was seriouslly thinking of quitting law school, and moving out to California to get a job in the skate world somewhere. Maybe I should do skateboarding "law." Maybe I should just stop looking for ghosts of myself...
I've been skating a lot recently. It has made me realize (1) how much I miss doing it all the time, and (2) the extent to which my ability has eroded over the last few years.
Part of the reason for (2) is that I am now in law school, and it eats all my time. I am going to be a lawyer soon. The problem is that I will always be a punk rock skateboarder at heart. I didn't want to follow that path into the realm of pro-skating. However, should I have followed it into the skate industry further than I did? Should I have arranged my life so it always centered around what is at the core of my being? Is it too late to do that now? Do I really want to do that, anyway?
Some people can grow-up, move-on, and evolve their personal identity. Sure, I have "grown up," but until the day I die, when ever I use (or think of) the word "I," it will always be some cocky skater kid, listening to Husker Du, and resisting the "normal" world. I think I will be forever stuck in the identity I created for myself in high school. How lame is that?
You can take the kid of Brooklyn, but can't take the Brooklyn out of the kid. I have court tomorrow. I have to wear a suit. What the hell happened to me? Last night I was seriouslly thinking of quitting law school, and moving out to California to get a job in the skate world somewhere. Maybe I should do skateboarding "law." Maybe I should just stop looking for ghosts of myself...