Indifferent
Have you ever given yourself to someone and then gotten nothing in return but disappointment? That is how I feel about my relationship with one of my bridesmaids. She's a great friend, when she wants to be a friend. When she doesnt... she sure does suck as a person. I'm not one to be mean like that.. but that's how I feel. I can't help but be honest, that is what this journal is for... So.. I am seriously thinking of cutting her out of the picture as a bridesmaid. I know its going to hurt her, and she's going to upset me with her words, but I think that in the long run it will be a far better thing that is happened this way. I would prolly kill her if "something came up" on my wedding day. Thats suppose to be my special day with Brandon. *sigh* So.. although I am really not looking forward to it.. I'm kicking her off my list and adding someone new. I hope things pan out well in the end.
*off to mother's*
*off to mother's*