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Alright, this is ridiculous. I've got to change this. My sleeping schedual MUST become solid.
It's been quite a long time since I've had an asthma attack. Over the years I've realized that most of the time, "attacks" only happen because people panic when they feel themselves closing off, which only succeeds in making you even more closed off and stressing out your heart. I'm able to keep my calm now, but it's still damned annoying. Especially at work, like tonight, where I have to go around feeling oxygen deprived and light-headed like I'm going to pass out, having no energy, and muddled thinking. Sleep deprivation is so not cool.
Especially bad now that these past few days it's caused me to develop sleep apnea, yet again. It's annoying to jerk awake after stopping breathing. My lungs are definatly the weakest part of my body when I've worn myself out past my limits. I'm going to be firm with myself. End of story. Going to be tough, especially when the parents visit. It's incredible how I can go from a perfect schedual to a ruined one in one day when they come over, simply because I want to stay up through the morning/day to visit.
Sometimes I wish the rest of the world were on my kind of schedual, then I wouldn't have to deal with it.
It's been quite a long time since I've had an asthma attack. Over the years I've realized that most of the time, "attacks" only happen because people panic when they feel themselves closing off, which only succeeds in making you even more closed off and stressing out your heart. I'm able to keep my calm now, but it's still damned annoying. Especially at work, like tonight, where I have to go around feeling oxygen deprived and light-headed like I'm going to pass out, having no energy, and muddled thinking. Sleep deprivation is so not cool.
Especially bad now that these past few days it's caused me to develop sleep apnea, yet again. It's annoying to jerk awake after stopping breathing. My lungs are definatly the weakest part of my body when I've worn myself out past my limits. I'm going to be firm with myself. End of story. Going to be tough, especially when the parents visit. It's incredible how I can go from a perfect schedual to a ruined one in one day when they come over, simply because I want to stay up through the morning/day to visit.
Sometimes I wish the rest of the world were on my kind of schedual, then I wouldn't have to deal with it.