My only, my precious, my love [1b/?]
anonymous
January 8 2011, 10:32:50 UTC
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It has become this: Small, cruel handsnot normally, they are soft and loving and wonderful and he loves them drag him down, downstairs, they both have lived in this big, empty house for a very long time, long enough to know the layout by heart. He shivers, the moist air that smells of pain and hurt and age and memories hitting his bare skin. Concrete, rough stone hitting his skin when Latvia lets go and pushes, the heavy nation stumbling, falling the last few stairs down into the basement.
He never continues beyond this point; what he does is not systematic. Not punishment like Russia himself used to deliver. Not planned.
It doesn't hurt less.
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And afterwards... afterwards those eyes, violet like his own, rage in them and distance and cold and so much like his own this is his fault "this is your f..ault, all y-your fault" you should not have been bad "you m-made me angry, don't m-make me angry" if you were good I would not have to punish you, da?
those eyes stare at him, at the blood, and the door is slammed shut. Or he leaves.
And later, when Russia manages to get up and winces at the bruises and maybe drags a leg or cradles a hand against his chest or can hardly see because his eyes have to regenerate first - later he cleans himself up, sometimes, and the vodka is still there in the kitchen and he takes some too because it makes it easier to handle. Sometimes he just grabs the vodka. And then he goes to find Latvia please be there, don't leave, don't be gone, I am sorry it will not happen again i will be good da? I will be good please forgive me. And finds him, always does, scared and relieved that he is still there and so sorry and apologizing, and most of the times the smaller nation hears and accepts. Beckons him over, lets him rest next to him. Kisses him better.
Sometimes, he is too angry to accept. Needs more. Time, usually.
Sometimes, he has passed out, too much alcohol.
Sometimes, the door is closed but the light on, and he knows that Latvia is there and still there not gone still there and he sleeps there, right outside the door, scared that he will be gone in the morning, not caring about how his back and neck and everything will hurt even more in the morning.
It's his fault, he makes too many mistakes, so, so many. But Latvia doesn't leave him. No matter what their bosses say, he doesn't leave him. He tries, as hard as he can, tries to not make the other male angry, but the fear is there, always there.
Re: My only, my precious, my love [1b/?]
anonymous
January 8 2011, 21:50:13 UTC
Oh man you made something that seems so unrealistic ...seem so realistic! Especially the stuttering in Latvia's voice and the reasons why Russia doesn't leave him! The not-telling-everything-that happened makes us see exactly how badly he can forget ;-;
I'm so happy there will be more...I hope someone helps him because although he used to be that bad...he's trying to get better!
I wonder how the more sexual aspects of their relationhship work out. TT.TT Wait one question is Latvia aware of how he is in fact abusing Ivan and pretending not to? Or is he saying Russia made him mad and that he wouldnt if he hadnt? or is he ....cough ya.
Re: My only, my precious, my love [1b/?]
anonymous
January 9 2011, 14:25:45 UTC
I loved this more than I though I would. <333 The differences between past and now that you put in are just wonderful, and how Russia just don't want to be alone... will wait for update!
It has become this: Small, cruel handsnot normally, they are soft and loving and wonderful and he loves them drag him down, downstairs, they both have lived in this big, empty house for a very long time, long enough to know the layout by heart. He shivers, the moist air that smells of pain and hurt and age and memories hitting his bare skin. Concrete, rough stone hitting his skin when Latvia lets go and pushes, the heavy nation stumbling, falling the last few stairs down into the basement.
He never continues beyond this point; what he does is not systematic. Not punishment like Russia himself used to deliver. Not planned.
It doesn't hurt less.
---
And afterwards... afterwards those eyes, violet like his own, rage in them and distance and cold and so much like his own this is his fault "this is your f..ault, all y-your fault" you should not have been bad "you m-made me angry, don't m-make me angry" if you were good I would not have to punish you, da?
those eyes stare at him, at the blood, and the door is slammed shut. Or he leaves.
And later, when Russia manages to get up and winces at the bruises and maybe drags a leg or cradles a hand against his chest or can hardly see because his eyes have to regenerate first - later he cleans himself up, sometimes, and the vodka is still there in the kitchen and he takes some too because it makes it easier to handle. Sometimes he just grabs the vodka. And then he goes to find Latvia please be there, don't leave, don't be gone, I am sorry it will not happen again i will be good da? I will be good please forgive me. And finds him, always does, scared and relieved that he is still there and so sorry and apologizing, and most of the times the smaller nation hears and accepts. Beckons him over, lets him rest next to him. Kisses him better.
Sometimes, he is too angry to accept. Needs more. Time, usually.
Sometimes, he has passed out, too much alcohol.
Sometimes, the door is closed but the light on, and he knows that Latvia is there and still there not gone still there and he sleeps there, right outside the door, scared that he will be gone in the morning, not caring about how his back and neck and everything will hurt even more in the morning.
It's his fault, he makes too many mistakes, so, so many. But Latvia doesn't leave him. No matter what their bosses say, he doesn't leave him. He tries, as hard as he can, tries to not make the other male angry, but the fear is there, always there.
But if he is good, Latvia won't leave.
Latvia... Latvia needs him too.
Da?
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Nevertheless, awesome fill. Waiting patiently for more/
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I'm so happy there will be more...I hope someone helps him because although he used to be that bad...he's trying to get better!
I wonder how the more sexual aspects of their relationhship work out. TT.TT
Wait one question is Latvia aware of how he is in fact abusing Ivan and pretending not to? Or is he saying Russia made him mad and that he wouldnt if he hadnt? or is he ....cough ya.
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The differences between past and now that you put in are just wonderful, and how Russia just don't want to be alone... will wait for update!
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