I am tired of hamburgers, I want a thick, juicy steak
I think the best for me to have written this update would have been when I had gone without sleep for 24 hours, or before seeing Juno with some nifty kids when I had the sinking feeling that I needed to update the world at that immediate time, but I guess now works too. My face is covered in a mud mask made from sea botanicals to clean the impurities from my skin and I wish I could find a mask that would do the same to my life.
Before I speak on more serious matters I would just like to put this out there: Juno is one of my favorite movies in a while. I am sick the trite shit on a stick the companies that monopolize the film industry churn out just to make a buck, Juno was different. It captured all the awkward pauses of real life without diminishing character development. It highlighted the genuine eccentricities of people without making them into their only personality traits. Juno was a feel-good movie that didn't overdo it and make me want to vomit into the bright glow of the movie screen, it just was what it was, perfectly so. A friend said to me after the movie "I loved that movie it just made me sad that I might never find my Juno." Speaking of which, some of us are going to see it again tomorrow, most likely...so you are invited too.
My life, the stickiest subject for me to talk about, and though I talk about it, my least favorite topic of conversation. Public forums do little justice for heavy issues and it just feels emotionally defunct to deal with things in such a manner. That being said, I am going to be hypocritical and talk about some bullet points without delving too far into the depths of my mind. Every other day is good enough and the other ones are complete shite, where I am left bitter, alone and unable to stop thinking about various issues on my mind. It baffles me. Finding someone who cares about you and is there for you unconditionally is a hard thing to come by. So, personally, I wouldn't throw something away that I cared about. I guess my biggest problem is that I feel like I have been tossed aside, forgotten about, taken to the trash. I have friends, many good, awesome, wonderful close friends, but I need something more. When I love it is completely and I would never throw such things away.
In addition, I have been having the weirdest dreams lately, which wake me up throughout the night. These dreams are so terrible that it makes me not want to sleep, and that my dear, is absolutely no fun.
I'm alive though and I have high hopes for things turning around in this New Year. I have become accustomed to asking people what their New Year's resolutions are and not revealing what mine are. At this point I kinda feel like they fall under the birthday candle wish rule, that if you tell someone it might not come true. Seeing as how the past few months have been a complete wash, some goodness would be ideal.
Before I speak on more serious matters I would just like to put this out there: Juno is one of my favorite movies in a while. I am sick the trite shit on a stick the companies that monopolize the film industry churn out just to make a buck, Juno was different. It captured all the awkward pauses of real life without diminishing character development. It highlighted the genuine eccentricities of people without making them into their only personality traits. Juno was a feel-good movie that didn't overdo it and make me want to vomit into the bright glow of the movie screen, it just was what it was, perfectly so. A friend said to me after the movie "I loved that movie it just made me sad that I might never find my Juno." Speaking of which, some of us are going to see it again tomorrow, most likely...so you are invited too.
My life, the stickiest subject for me to talk about, and though I talk about it, my least favorite topic of conversation. Public forums do little justice for heavy issues and it just feels emotionally defunct to deal with things in such a manner. That being said, I am going to be hypocritical and talk about some bullet points without delving too far into the depths of my mind. Every other day is good enough and the other ones are complete shite, where I am left bitter, alone and unable to stop thinking about various issues on my mind. It baffles me. Finding someone who cares about you and is there for you unconditionally is a hard thing to come by. So, personally, I wouldn't throw something away that I cared about. I guess my biggest problem is that I feel like I have been tossed aside, forgotten about, taken to the trash. I have friends, many good, awesome, wonderful close friends, but I need something more. When I love it is completely and I would never throw such things away.
In addition, I have been having the weirdest dreams lately, which wake me up throughout the night. These dreams are so terrible that it makes me not want to sleep, and that my dear, is absolutely no fun.
I'm alive though and I have high hopes for things turning around in this New Year. I have become accustomed to asking people what their New Year's resolutions are and not revealing what mine are. At this point I kinda feel like they fall under the birthday candle wish rule, that if you tell someone it might not come true. Seeing as how the past few months have been a complete wash, some goodness would be ideal.