Sorry its been a while...
Hey you guys, welcome to my document of recollections, memories, and emotions. It has been forever since I have updated, yes I know! Other than quotes I believe my last entry was about my trip to the beach with Whit, which was wonderful, and it only got better when I came back home. I have finally got my license, so Lynz and I have been going out and see what kind of adventures we can get into. We have had fun and I have learned not to back up her driveway when it's dark! I have also learned just because guys look good from a distance doesn't mean you should follow them, it can be a great disappointment...then you have to use one of your friends as a "pretend boyfriend" lmao. Last time Lynz and I went out together we went to Wal*mart, Mcdonalds, the mall, back to Mcdonalds, back to the mall, then bowling, then back to mcdonalds and omg we had so much fun haha. She was feeling good after she took about 4 Goody pills, we will use that as our excuse for opening our big mouths that night....SHEW I just knew I wouldn't live to turn 17 after doing that. Here lately I have been spending a lot of time with Jon, he is a great guy and always makes me laugh. Nothing too serious will come of it because he is going to college in a few weeks, but it's a great feeling to actually like someone. I had given up on my thoughts ever to be drifting away from my past relationship, and it has made me realize that I have wasted too much time on just one person. I guess it's true that if you aren't willing for change, good opportunities will pass you by and that sucks lol. I have been wondering why I wanted more than anything to have the one thing that hurts me the most, like I had a craving to be depressed and bitter, very sad huh? lol. I guess what I'm getting at is it feels like a big accomplishment to let go of something I always believed that I needed, and found something better. It gives me hope for future relationships, YAY. I think everyone had given up on me ever getting over it, hell I had given up on myself too, but now it feels good just to be happy again. Jon, thanks for being such a wonderful friend to me.... you are the best! I have also been spending more time with Jules here lately and it's been great, except when she comes to my house with her boss and I'm in my shower LOL. Julie you are the best fellow "quarter rollin, pony riding, tag team partner" EVER! lmao that is too funny!!!! She has a way of getting through my thick skull and making me see the reality of things, which is always good. She has good advice for me, always. I have been spending a little time with Rae, but not as much as I would like to be. She has an exchange student coming in soon for those of you who didn't know and she is very very pretty. Whitlen is going off the college here soon and I just might hit a deep state of depression :(... I don't know what I'm going to do without her, I love her so much. My other whit, I haven't got to see her much since the beach, but we do talk on the phone about everyday so that's better than nothing! This has been one of the best vacations in a long time considering I haven't been playing much ball. I have been babysitting some, not my brightest idea ever but it's good experiance I guess. It frustrates me too death sometimes, like today before I came home I just sat on the couch and cried I was so frustrated, would have thought I was the 2 year old in the room lol. Anyway, this has been an unexpected, very long entry and I'm exhausted so I believe I will get in the bed! I will try to update atleast once a week from now on haha...... much love ;)
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