yip dee doo dah day hay!!!!!!!!
Well today has been one of the longest days i've had in a while...it's not even that skool took long to go by cuz it didn't....i put myself in one of those i don't care moods and didn't let neone get to me like i did previously (yesterday)..
i'm tryin my hardest to try...which is very hard fer me at this point..cuz i'm at the ponit that i kno what i'm good at and i feel that all that matters is that i kno that...but i guess that's not good enuff fer skool and all...so i'm tryin and it's takin everything i have to push myself...i didn't think it'd get this hard to try my senior year...i figured well it's my last year i'll try the hardest i ever have...i kno it's sad but i used to be scared and feel nervous when i didn't turn things in on time..this year i haven't turned in half the stuff we've done and i don't care...i thought well maybe after xmas break i'll be fine and i'll b back to my normal self...
yeah didn't work...i jus feel like at home i'm put thru so much shit that i'm jus emotionally drained and i don't have ne energy left fer nething else.... this yr has jus been weird fer me...i really don't hang out with neone nemore i'm starting to distance myself from ppl again like i did back when my rents got divorced... i wish i knew what was wrong with me...cuz it's not that i'm depressed i'm the happiest i've been in a while...
i found bill and he makes me so happy...he's a gr8 guy...;)
i don't get it...i dunno mayb i'm jus goin thru a stage and maturing and moving on in life and leaving the past behind...but that doesn't explain y i'm always so exhausted...it makes no sense to me
neways moving on....today was a pretty busy day...i'm once again playin the role of mom since my mom is goin out to dinner tonite or sumthin (who knos)...got to cook dinner fer like the 3rd night in a row and clean all the dishes and shovel the driveway and sidewalks and back patio and all that good stuff...i'm gettin really tired of it all really quick...
i gotta get a job...plan on checkin out sum places this weekend...so that should be interesting
bill's comin over friday :)...i can't wait...i think that's what's makin this week seem so long....knowin that he's comin over and wantin friday to get here faster but after tomorrow friday's here yippee!!!
so yeah...good luck to all in the finishing of our senior year...have a great rest of the day...
~*<3Erika*~
i'm tryin my hardest to try...which is very hard fer me at this point..cuz i'm at the ponit that i kno what i'm good at and i feel that all that matters is that i kno that...but i guess that's not good enuff fer skool and all...so i'm tryin and it's takin everything i have to push myself...i didn't think it'd get this hard to try my senior year...i figured well it's my last year i'll try the hardest i ever have...i kno it's sad but i used to be scared and feel nervous when i didn't turn things in on time..this year i haven't turned in half the stuff we've done and i don't care...i thought well maybe after xmas break i'll be fine and i'll b back to my normal self...
yeah didn't work...i jus feel like at home i'm put thru so much shit that i'm jus emotionally drained and i don't have ne energy left fer nething else.... this yr has jus been weird fer me...i really don't hang out with neone nemore i'm starting to distance myself from ppl again like i did back when my rents got divorced... i wish i knew what was wrong with me...cuz it's not that i'm depressed i'm the happiest i've been in a while...
i found bill and he makes me so happy...he's a gr8 guy...;)
i don't get it...i dunno mayb i'm jus goin thru a stage and maturing and moving on in life and leaving the past behind...but that doesn't explain y i'm always so exhausted...it makes no sense to me
neways moving on....today was a pretty busy day...i'm once again playin the role of mom since my mom is goin out to dinner tonite or sumthin (who knos)...got to cook dinner fer like the 3rd night in a row and clean all the dishes and shovel the driveway and sidewalks and back patio and all that good stuff...i'm gettin really tired of it all really quick...
i gotta get a job...plan on checkin out sum places this weekend...so that should be interesting
bill's comin over friday :)...i can't wait...i think that's what's makin this week seem so long....knowin that he's comin over and wantin friday to get here faster but after tomorrow friday's here yippee!!!
so yeah...good luck to all in the finishing of our senior year...have a great rest of the day...
~*<3Erika*~