To Dave
Dave,
You know it's fucking amazing how blind I am when it comes to you. I imagine things finally allowing themselves to slowly work out, the way I've always wanted them to. I picture the day you won't lie to me, the day that you'll actually hold me, and tell me the things you tell me, without telling them to another girl at the exact same time. I have never felt so fucking completely naive until today. I thought for once you might have changed, but after snooping around, which I'm very fucking good at, I have discovered that once again, I cannot trust you. I want to be with you SO fucking bad, it is beyond words, and emotion. It is a drive, from the inside of my soul. and now, It feels like someone has cut open my chest with a razor, and squeezed my heart and ripped it out of my chest. How can you fucking do something like this to me? So now your trying to have something going on with me while having something going on with Meagan, and whoever the fuck this Sara bitch is? Except, now your planning on getting married? Have the fucking balls to tell me something god Damnit. this is the fucking last string. I am SO fucking hurt right now you have NO fucking idea. I never imagined one person could hurt me so badly. I thought previous guys were bad, but this has got to be the worst thing I have ever experianced. I told you I loved You. I dropped everything to be with you, and you hold me and pretend everything is okay? Obviously I'm not wanted very much, or you don't have the same passion I have for you, because if this was me, I wouldnt dream of fucking this up...but you did. I hope I was actually the one you wanted the most. because your never going to have me again. I hope you go through the same amount of pain as i have experianced in one evening. I have never cried so much over one person in such a short amount of time....and I'll I can say is how much I despise you more than ever right now, because I laid my fucking heart on the line, and you smashed it faster than a fat bitch sitting on a tea cup poodle.
Fuck. You.
I mean it.
You know it's fucking amazing how blind I am when it comes to you. I imagine things finally allowing themselves to slowly work out, the way I've always wanted them to. I picture the day you won't lie to me, the day that you'll actually hold me, and tell me the things you tell me, without telling them to another girl at the exact same time. I have never felt so fucking completely naive until today. I thought for once you might have changed, but after snooping around, which I'm very fucking good at, I have discovered that once again, I cannot trust you. I want to be with you SO fucking bad, it is beyond words, and emotion. It is a drive, from the inside of my soul. and now, It feels like someone has cut open my chest with a razor, and squeezed my heart and ripped it out of my chest. How can you fucking do something like this to me? So now your trying to have something going on with me while having something going on with Meagan, and whoever the fuck this Sara bitch is? Except, now your planning on getting married? Have the fucking balls to tell me something god Damnit. this is the fucking last string. I am SO fucking hurt right now you have NO fucking idea. I never imagined one person could hurt me so badly. I thought previous guys were bad, but this has got to be the worst thing I have ever experianced. I told you I loved You. I dropped everything to be with you, and you hold me and pretend everything is okay? Obviously I'm not wanted very much, or you don't have the same passion I have for you, because if this was me, I wouldnt dream of fucking this up...but you did. I hope I was actually the one you wanted the most. because your never going to have me again. I hope you go through the same amount of pain as i have experianced in one evening. I have never cried so much over one person in such a short amount of time....and I'll I can say is how much I despise you more than ever right now, because I laid my fucking heart on the line, and you smashed it faster than a fat bitch sitting on a tea cup poodle.
Fuck. You.
I mean it.